Studying Politics
so so bored! its gonna be 12am and i'm gonna be in bed soon. well, another shitty day of work tomorrow. i'm wish tomorrow could really end fast, like in a flash. time always fly when you didn't notice, thats one thing i'm sure everyone knows. time can be so POWERFUL... when people say we control time, well i say, time controls us.
have you ever been in one place and thinking whether you are gonna be in that same old place years from now and you just can't wait for those years to pass. thinking of these, you somehow got this weird feeling. THEN, after those years past, you'll be thinking about that place you've been years before and that weird feeling you had at that point of time. by the time you know it, everything seems to be over. you can't go back to that day anymore. pardon me if you don't understand, cause i really don't know how to express my feelings. its just so special or maybe even weird?
ok i still remember the day i was sitting in the bus to work on one monday and thinking that i still got 9 hours of work left before going back home. and also how i thought that there's still 6 more weeks of boring work to go before i have my precious 1 week holidays. just thinking of that 6 more weeks, i just felt so sad and moody at that moment. i was saying to myself, "HOW AM I GONNA TAHAN FOR THESE 6 MORE WEEKS!!, DIE AH, I'M FUCKED!". can you imagine how sucky my feeling were at that time? BUT NOW, that 6 weeks is almost over, just 3 more days left. i could still feel that day's memories and feelings so fresh in my mind. i wonder if i'm suppose to be happy or sad now. everything just ends before you even knew it.
also, on another occasion, where i was sitting on my girlfriend's couch and thinking if i could still be together with her or even still sitting at her couch years from now.
that eventually, never happens....
now, like the others, i still have that memory fresh in my head. hoping if i could go back to the past and change everything, and i mean everything just to be back with her. bad things just comes to you when you're not prepared or ready for it. i feel so useless.
i cannot really imagine years from now, where i get married or go to work officially. and all my buddies going separate ways and hardly meeting each others for soccer and stuffs. for now, i don't want that to happen, hoping that day never comes. but when that time really comes, i'll be reading this post and thinking, "I MISS THE OLD DAYS....."
have you ever been in one place and thinking whether you are gonna be in that same old place years from now and you just can't wait for those years to pass. thinking of these, you somehow got this weird feeling. THEN, after those years past, you'll be thinking about that place you've been years before and that weird feeling you had at that point of time. by the time you know it, everything seems to be over. you can't go back to that day anymore. pardon me if you don't understand, cause i really don't know how to express my feelings. its just so special or maybe even weird?
ok i still remember the day i was sitting in the bus to work on one monday and thinking that i still got 9 hours of work left before going back home. and also how i thought that there's still 6 more weeks of boring work to go before i have my precious 1 week holidays. just thinking of that 6 more weeks, i just felt so sad and moody at that moment. i was saying to myself, "HOW AM I GONNA TAHAN FOR THESE 6 MORE WEEKS!!, DIE AH, I'M FUCKED!". can you imagine how sucky my feeling were at that time? BUT NOW, that 6 weeks is almost over, just 3 more days left. i could still feel that day's memories and feelings so fresh in my mind. i wonder if i'm suppose to be happy or sad now. everything just ends before you even knew it.
also, on another occasion, where i was sitting on my girlfriend's couch and thinking if i could still be together with her or even still sitting at her couch years from now.
that eventually, never happens....
now, like the others, i still have that memory fresh in my head. hoping if i could go back to the past and change everything, and i mean everything just to be back with her. bad things just comes to you when you're not prepared or ready for it. i feel so useless.
i cannot really imagine years from now, where i get married or go to work officially. and all my buddies going separate ways and hardly meeting each others for soccer and stuffs. for now, i don't want that to happen, hoping that day never comes. but when that time really comes, i'll be reading this post and thinking, "I MISS THE OLD DAYS....."