Symptoms of A Failing Heart

i'll be trying my luck to appeal to tp together with ah ni later.
but not before lunch with wenyan and boon at botak jones.
hopefully things go well so i won't kill my brain, thinking where to go after ORD.
so as we're nearing ORD, it's starting to feel more stressful.
is this how i should feel?
business which is more versatile and i may be of much use in my dad's business?
or perhaps design where i have more interest but i'll need luck and talent to be successful?
and should i enroll PSB? MDIS? SIM? KAPLAN? NAFA? LASELLE?
so many paths to choose.
so many different prices.
so many brain cells to kill.
so little money to spend.
life is terrible.


anyway, booking in and out each day isn't fun at all!!
it's fucking wasting my transport fee.
but what to do.
i would rather do this than stay in camp all the time.
but slowly, this is starting to strain me out.
day by day.
how long is it gonna last?
we have no idea.
seems like there's no end.
no end to my whining.


where the fuck is my ORD mood?
it irks me when we're suppose to relax back in camp.
fuck.
fuck him.
just come out or turn yourself in.
either way you're DEAD.