Symptoms of A Failing Heart

didn't went to school today cause i kinda overslept. my friends told me there were important topics taught today and there'll be a phase test on monday. damn, i think i'm gonna fail it cause they say its really very difficult especially when i even missed the lesson. god bless me.

anyway today afternoon went to pasir ris with weitong, ben, dick and wenyan to book our oct - dec birthday boy's chalet. we took a cab there. found out there was this promotion going on which is very worth it. but then realised that only a ntuc member can book it (which is wenyan's mom). so it ended up a wasted trip. the rest took a cab back while i took a bus cause i was going tampines interchange to meet my classmates to go geylang (its not what u think. haha)

i was half an hour late cause went tm first to buy earsticks for my bro. i thought i was the latest one but i was wrong. haha. waited for few of them to arrive and after breaking fast. we (afiq, farhan, farhan's friend, mirah and me) made our way to geylang. over there, met up with khairi and all of us went to eat at a malay stall. i was pretty full with the nasi bryani in my stomach. we then proceed to some complex to meet up with ayoub, iklash, ghaz, haikal, azy, siti and few of their friends. we took a walk at few of the complex and then to the bazaar which is so damn bloody crowded , BIG and stuffy. lucky i was the only one in shorts. haha. the bazaar is pretty awesome with all the nice food, clothings and stuffs around. i bought a burger, lots of drinks and ate some malay food i've never try in my life before. but they actually taste like some chinese food i eat but only in different form. haha. i totally recommend u guys out there if u have the chance. its really cool. i'm wish i could go back there again sometime. i was even named as adul senget by my friends. haa weird. after hours of walking around, we finally got tired and decided to went back home. i took mrt with some of them while the rest took a bus. so sleepy on the way home. actually wanted to go ben's house to join the rest of the rowdians but i was too tired. somemore they were playing mahjong anyway, so there's nothing much i could do over there.

tml my parents would be visiting my bro whose camping at tekong. muaha. wish i could be there but there's only 2 visitors pass. my dad thought of letting me go instead but i'm afraid i can't wake up early tml so i'll pass. just hope they remember to buy breakfast for me. haha.

today went to school late again due to the rain. i was suppose to bring soccer ball to school as there was sports and wellness lesson today but it was rainning so i thought they wouldn't be playing soccer anyway. so i went back to sleep cause i was so tired. before left, i suddenly remember i had to hand in a giro form by today. so i went to the bank first for the thumbprint and then to macdonald for a sausage muffin (just couldn't resist it. ha) before making my way to school.

back at school, the 3 hours of MMF was totally free period. most were surfing net and playing games instead of doing their project which until now, i still haven't do anything. its so freakin' hard!!! during the 3 hours, the teacher was calling up names for those haven't complete their practical assignment and 1 by 1 have to go up and do it (that includes me) even after the 3 hours, my name was still not called yet so have to wait till tml for my turn i guess. there was still 1 hour of CMAIN which also had to go up 1 by 1 for some mini theory test which consist of 2 questions. it was by register number and i am the last few one. those who had finished can go home. damn so unfair. so i just play FIFA 94 with my friends while waiting for my turn to come. when it was my turn, i couldn't really answer the question and the time was already 1.40pm which is totally out of schedule. we were suppose to end school at 1pm. fucking teacher. evenmore, we had to go to the library after that for some DBF project stuffs. arrggg i hate it!! before proceeding to the library, josh and i went to eat first. back at the library, my leader actually say we could leave if we wanted to. haha we were so glad and decided to catch the movie, "The Grudge" today instead cause that fucking josh said he made a mistake as the 'all souls day' is next tuesday not today and so he can make it. what an idiot. hahaha. this time i check with the GV telephone booking first again which indicate that the next time slot was 5.20pm. 5.20pm was late so we (khairi, josh, yusman and me) decide to play pool again cause our leader would join us too if we're playing pool. in the end while waiting for the bus, our leader had something on and had to leave. so we're back at watching movie. in case the GV telephone booking was right this time, so we went CS to buy our tickets and luckily, there was a 3.30pm time slot. 30 mins before the show, we had nothing to do so we just went to GV to check if they had a smiliar timing. in the end, they really had one at 3.10pm. fucking hell. the system cheated me again. shibby GV.

"The Grudge" was actually quite scary. it is better than the japanese version cause it kinda freak me out abit. they changed some of the storyline and this time, there was a few shocking scene which initially, i got shocked and skipped a beat. still, i was rather sleepy throughout the show cause i actually intend to go home straight after school today to sleep. now i can't, zzZZ. after the show, went home straight until now. never even take my nap at all. anyway, i've just finished my dinner and i'm starting to feel bored. just hope i could wake up on time tml for school but the lessons are just simply so boring!!! time better fly tml.

today had a class test for CCOM. it was the first period for the day and i never even studied for it due to yesterday soccer match of ManU against Arsenal. a totally important match not to be missed (ended with a result of ManU 2 Arsenal 0). i was rather late for school but there's still alot of my classmates who are far worse than me. haha. luckily the teacher allowed us 30 mins to study. i try to remember most of it but in the end, the test was almost EXACTLY as the previous test he gave us except for last few questions. i was like"WHAT THE HELL!?" because i had studied more for those questions that didn't came out in the previous test (isn't that what most people would do? hmm...). god damnit. but still i think i could pass it as the whole class was like copying each other's work. muahahaha.

after the test, went up for the other lesson. as i expected, those who haven't yet took the test on last friday had to stay back while the rest can go already. muahaha. but too bad, one of my friend, josh haven't took it so we went to the library to wait for him. an hour passed and he finally came. then it was time for us (khiari, josh, yusman, shirhan and me) to go tm to watch the movie, "The Grudge". it was actually supposed to be tml to watch it but that stupid josh don't know have what 'all souls day' so he couldn't make it tml. therefore, we decided to make it today instead. i called GV to check the timing which was said to be 12.05pm. we left school at around 11.20am so should be on time for that 12.05 show. but in the end when we reach GV, the next show was only 1pm. what the fuck? the telephone booking system cheated me. we couldn't watch that timing as most of us are goin back to school later at 2pm for CSKILL lesson. we checked CS's timing which also suck. so we have no choice but to go pavilion to play pool instead and postpon the movie to friday. most of them had their home clothes inside while i don't. luckily the people there didn't care and we play pool till about 1.45pm. there were 5 of us sharing this 1 table. hahaha how pathetic. at around 1.52 pm, they then made their way back to school while i headed home myself cause i'm just too damn lazy to go back school. somemore, the lesson is just plain watching vcd, "Bent It Like Beckham" which is quite a lame show and i'm so tired of walking home everyday alone without my discman!! (which my bro took with him to camp) arrggg!!

ok so i'm home now, planning to take a nap soon and then later make my way to wenyan's house for some PS2 gaming. after that, i have no idea. zzzzzZZZ.....

soccer match today vs siew juan's friend's team. to our surprise, it was one of the chinese team who was thrashed around 6-0 by us when we play at the hockey court few days back. bunch of loser who kinda look down on us. and this time, it was even more deadlier, we had a 11-0 victory. haha. i scored only 2 goals (damn, missed an open goal or i would be one of the hatrick heroes too. ha.) while 3 goals for both qingan and iskandar. 2 goals for khiaseng and 1 goal for james. CREDITS to iskandar as he was fasting but still manage to score goals. good job! free lunch for u but too bad u can't dine in with us. muahhaa...

after the match, went to the opposite coffeeshop to have our lunch then slowly all make their different way home. i was with ben, hock, albert, tiannee and peggie and we walked home!! so tired. at home, received a call from the computer repairer telling me that my computer has finally been repaired. so happy!! i've waited so long for it. so went down and collect it, 80 bucks man. so expensive. and now, i'm back here installing some drivers and stuffs. most of my pictures, songs and videos are gone!! arrgg...

no more looking,

i've found her.

i want you to know that

i miss you,

i miss you so.

so fucking bored and vexed today!!! ARRGG!!! i've been taking short naps and moving around since i came back from school. just wish there was something for me to do!! FUCK I REALLY NEED SOMETHING TO DO!! maybe a game or vcd or ANYTHING!! as long as it could keep me company. damn. the boredom is really starting to piss me off. was actually talking on the phone with karen just now but her friend from overseas called. shibby. so now i have to wait for her to call me back. wonder how long it's gonna take!! hope she faster call or i'm gonna die here man. the only thing i could do now is just screaming with my songs! I'M SO TIRED OF BEING WEAK!!! SUCH RAGE THAT I COULD SCREAM ALL THE STARS RIGHT OUT OF THE SKY!!!

alright i've just came back after sending karen home. went to watch "white chicks" just now at century square with her at 9.15pm. it is a totally hilarious show, u can really laugh ur shit out throughout the whole show. it's a MUST WATCH movie of the month. haha.

anyway, about today's soccer match against mechatronic in the school. we lost 6-1, a total thrashing defeat. but i'm sure we've done our best. we were really sucky throughout the first half with the scoreline of 4-1. there was just a big hole in our defense and midfield. also, to blame the goalkeeper for being ineffective. haha. on the second half, we did much better and mange to keep a tight scoreline even when we're one man down (shirhan went home after the first half). all thanks to me, haha just kidding. i just did my very best to control the defense as there was only 3 defenders left. evenmore, ayoub, whose the new keeper displayed tremendous skill by saving lots of goal. otherwise we would have been more disgraced. while trying to jump and head away the ball, i missed and caused a goal. damn its all my fault. furthermore, my right leg started to cramp. it happened during the last few mins and the cramp was like so terrible. the pain is neverending, never had i had cramp for 5 mins. almost unbearable. at that point of time, we're already 2 man down and so, causes a leak in the defense and ended up another goal. shibby~ nevertheless, we've done our best.

today's match we won 48:38 against xiao howai's friend's team. muahaha. the opponent was rather strong as almost all are them are so fucking tall and fit!! can't really outjumped nor outpushed them. evenmore, it was their home, we were playing somewhere at pasir ris. a very long walk from the interchange just to reach there and thankfully, the court ain't that bad. they told us it was their team's first match, so maybe thats why we won. haa. anyway, our team, xiaogui still need alot of work to do to become even more stronger. after the match, we hang around the court for an hour or so before making our way to S11 for our dinner. at around 11+ we left for home. i am so tired, think its time for sleep. ciao~

today after school went to watch "Resident Evil: Apocolypse" with ma classmates, khairi, shirhan and yati despite all friends saying that its not as nice as expected. but after the show, i felt differently. to me the show is really fantastic and the story is good. i'd give a 4 over 5 rating for it. no regrets for watching it. then after the show, went to LJS to had a meal at around 4pm. the total expenses really cost me alot. so BROKE nowadays!! then went home to take a nap. to my surprise, my mom even bought me dinner at 7pm. i've like totally eat 2 meals in such a short time. damn i'm full and FAT!! after that went to tamp changkat cc to play bball with xiaogui as theres a match coming tommorrow. we have to win, so we have to train hard today by playing with the uncles. when i was cycling my way home, i went to the street soccer court to try my luck if i can find the rowdians there and i was right. i play soccer there for a couple of hours before making my final way home. at home, i found out that my brather bought back DUNKIN DONUTS from malaysia. muahaha. totally delicious!! i ate like 4 of it in total. nice~ and now after eating the donuts, its time for me to sleep. haha. bedtime~

today had a soccer match at kaki bukit area (super lousy field) and we lost 2-4, i knew we could have won but there was something happened that made us lose our morale. first of all, there was a quite harsh arguement with the stupid bangala referee (opps) halfway throughout the match and that made key/important players like qingan and engkeong to stop playing and so, with no choice, we had to subsititute other rowdians in and also, changing our formation. evenmore, at that time, the opponent were already leading us by 1-0 due to alot of mistake in our defense especially weitong! really wonder what he was doing at that time. these events really damaged our morale badly. it was hard for me to increase back the morale. there was also these 2 skillful malay that was helping them to play. during the first half, weitong even injured his leg badly while trying to tackle 1 of the malay. this result in a very big leak in our defense. therefore, at the end of the first half, we suffer a 3-0 loss. our morale were almost totally crushed. but the thing is, we still have the mentality that we can defeat the opponents because we are STRONG!! at the second half, we didn't give up. the defense was much stronger than the first half with the help of albert who play quite well (he's beside me now and thats what he wanted me to say, hahaha). somemore, we play without the help of "STAR DEFENSE PLAYERS", weitong and mond (whose leg was kinda injured and couldn't play throughout the second half). just as i was hoping, my brather, xinchee scored a header from a corner free kick (could had been me if he missed, hahaha. and its not the typical TYCO GOAL he used to score. LOL!!) and it rekindles our morale. there is hope! whats more, a rough tackle from the opponent's keeper result in a penalty. we were so happy. but desmond (ks' bro) who took the penalty didn't take the chance well. he missed! how unfortunate. if he had score that goal, we could have won. just about our morale are increasing, the opponent struck another blow to us. the score was 4-1. we knew this would be the end of us but we still continue to fight. the game is not over until the final whitsle is blown. finally, the cheeky qingan gave us our tiny glipse of hope with a terrific goal. in the end, we still didn't manage to turn the tables and so, suffered a loss but all of us don't feel sad. its like the first time we had a happy loss. haha. and thats good!! in our hearts, we knew we could have won. there was so much chance/opportunity for us but all went hitting the goal post. damn~ anyway i'm pretty sure we did our very best. WO MEN HEN QIANG!!!

now, i'm here at chinmeng's house blogging, and just finish eating my nasi brayani with 1 roti prata koso. the rest, as usual, are 'swimming'. haha. think we're gonna watch vcd or EPL soon i hope. feeling so boring and hungry now. but can't eat so much. need to diet!! muahaha.