Symptoms of A Failing Heart

i don't belong here, i gotta move on dear.
escape from this afterlife.
cause this time i'm right to move on and on, far away from here.
got nothing against you and surely i'll miss you.
this place full of peace and light, and i'd hope you might,
take me back inside when the time is right.

my computer is down!
it just fucking die on me suddenly.
life without internet can be so boring!
i'm trying to work on it but i guess it won't be up so early.


well, i was supposed to book in tonight but thanks to my busted ankle.
i got 3 days mc and my next book in day won't be in the new year.
hoho.
now people will start calling me chao keng.
zzzz...


MERRY CHRISTMAS.
i hope you guys had a great christmas.
cause sadly, i didn't quite enjoyed mine.
christmas' eve was just more painting in the noon before i came out in the night.
yan was driving tong and they came to pick me up before fetching zhenfai and meifang.
we had dinner at siglap's hongkong cafe.
then drove around eastcoast and changi but i was sound asleep at the back cause i was so fucking wore out from the revamping.
back to tampines was to pass ziting her xmas gift from tong.
felki's house was next for supper.
thank you auntie, for the turkey, roast beef and stuffs!
so so nice...


so for the past few days before christmas, some of the rowdians have been helping out with my revamp plans.
painting, cleaning, clearing cockroaches, enduring with the smell and repainting.
we finally completed it and it is such a great accomplishment.
though we still have to clear out all the excess thrash after all the hardwork.
still, i'm glad to see the new changes of my home for the upcoming 2008.
not forgetting my new Sharp 42" LCD HDTV which just came yesterday.
finally i could make full use of my ps3!


anyway, i'd like to give a big thanks to those who helped me with the revamp.
weitong, keong, zhenfai, mond, wenyan, felki, suetjing and peggie.
THANK YOU! <3
i'm sure you guys are satisfied with the long beach and gelare treat already.
rofl. though sadly, mond and peggie couldn't make it.


so there you go, with my busted ankle, i was home most of the time last week.
busy painting non-stop since last week like a cheap labour and only manage to go out a couple of times to do some errands.


one of the time i actually went out was to parkway after painting on the 22nd.
keong, tong, wenyan, suetjing and i waited for felki to end work at 8pm.
had dinner and walk around for abit before lan gaming of battlefield 2 at katong.
it was way brutal and awesome playing it together.
especially when we ride and died as a team.
lmao!


the other time was out to celebrate joanne's belated birthday on the 23rd.
HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY UMBRELLA! =)
met up with zhenfai, meifang and her 2 friends first for dinner and stuffs..
then waited for joanne to end work at 10.30pm before we make our way to this pub/bar at mohd sultan.
we were like the only customer there. lol.
drank quite abit and had lots of fun and laughter there and we finally called it a night at 3am.
sent her home and home sweet home for myself.
photos will be up soon i hope.

i've finally revamped my new room to become more spacious.
new paintings with old furnitures gone and new ones coming in.
thanks to some of the rowdians for their huge effort!
sadly, i couldn't help much due to my pig's trotter.
though there's still the living room and 2 bedrooms to paint.
we shall complete it soon.


and FUCK.
my ankle seriously hurt alot more than i expected.
i have difficulty simply walking around at home.
somehow, i don't feel good at all.
like a handicap.
i need to rest, and see a doctor or something tomorrow.
night people, and thanks again.

i sprained my right ankle.
just when we were about to end our game.
and why must it happen when i'm on holiday!
why can't i get injured during normal days instead.
FUCK.

the silence keeps it easy,
keeps you safe for the moment.
as you're walking away,
your foot steps get louder.
all you needed was time,
but now time will destroy us.


it will all be over, and here we are.
we're stuck inside this salted earth together.
you'll pierce my lungs,
my limbs go numb,
as my colors fade out.


you watch me bleed.
you watch me bleed.


"watch me bleed" by scary kids scaring kids

i have been talking face to face with my mum.
and yet she hasn't seen the piercing.
phew. rofl.
i hope to keep it that way.


p.s. it swelled like fuck.

below are the missing sentosa photos for the past weeks.
i'm lazy to elaborate more.
let the pictures do the talking.

nothing beats having dunkin donuts for breakfast!
hoho.
so i manage to catch some sleep over at wenyan's house yesterday.
but i was WoW-ing all the way till 6.30am before i slept and woke up again at 8.30am.
i was supposed to have a swimming/suntan session with anne but the weather spolits it all.
end up walking home and waiting til now.


finally, i got one i wanted.
the last piece of the puzzle. lol.
my final lip piercing.
we got a tipoff that the piercing cost cheaper, $19 to be exact, at outside whitesands.
therefore, weili and i went there straight after book out instead of the $50 one at roxy square.
and the one who did the piercing job was an uncle!
omfg. rofl.
scary at first, but we're cool.
though i must say it hurts quite abit!, compared to all my piercings.
thank god my mom still haven't found out yet.
but i guess either way, i'm dead once my great-grandma finds out.
=x


rain rain go away.
come again another day.

my WoW guild, phantom brethren's bbq at bukit timah yesterday was really fun.
as it was the first time most of us got to see each other, like complete strangers.
i must say its so much different to see them in person because all along, i've only been chatting to them via WoW or hearing their voices on ventrilo.
honestly, most of them look totally different from what i imagined.
rofl.
too bad our other guildies from other countries like iran, india, us and hongkong weren't here.
or it would have been much more interesting.


and the funny thing is how we talk to each other about everything but it always relate back to WoW content. haha.
almost everything we talked last night was about WoW.
and also how we call each other through our IGN (in-game name), because most of us don't even know each other real name.


so the bbq was held at our guild leader's condo, right beside the swimming pool.
cars were available to drive us to and fro, courtesy of oni, tc and kianheng.
food was awesome yet alil' short of supply so we also ordered pizza hut as well.
throughout the process, we got to know each other better.
and boon even got dumped into the swimming pool as predicted.
100g for that!
HAHA!
eventually, some of us got wet too.
thank god for me though.
i'm simply too angelic ;)


at the end of the bbq.
we get to exchange the gifts worth of $10 which we bought beforehand.
i end up getting a glow in the dark pillow back.
how cool.
it was great meeting all of them and i look forward to raiding and hang outwith them more.


a reminder to all PB's guildies.
LEARN TO START FIRE LIKE A MAGE, SERIOUSLY.
LMAO.

hohoho.
yes, my handphone line is back.
so i'm contactable from now on.
i even accept any prank calls.
cause i'm so glad i got my line back, life without it was so fucking boring.


few days ago, my battlion had a weird event.
which is called, the battlion's helmet day.
it's so fucking hilarious because we have to wear helmet wherever we go!
as long as we stepped out of our bunk, we have to wear it.
even if it's going to the toilet to bathe and wash up.
the first time i heard it, i'm like WHAT THE FUCK!
seriously, it's so lame that people from other unit see us and laugh at us!
we're like fucking clowns!!!
so retarded we look, tard-heads walking around.


oh, and i remember one particular instance when we're walking to the cookhouse.
some technician said this, "we should have a battlion's toolbox day, and carry our toolbox everywhere".
i LAUGHED MY ASS OFF.
HAHA.

bad news.
i've just lost my handphone yesterday during outfield.
thanks to being the enemy for the AI.
argh!
my fucking 3 months old nokia 2626, all gone.
how sad.
=(
it's been like years since i lost my phone previously.
and the fact that i hate uploading the new contacts for the phone.
so fucking troublesome.

so if there's anything emergency.
i don't think i can be contactable now but you can trying calling weitong.
but i'm sure that by the time i book out, my phone and simcard should be ready.
and for your information, i'm booking out tomorrow already as i'm clearing off.
i guess i'm lucky that i'm actually having nights out now.
lol.

time's up.
i'm out.

4NTM is finally over soon.
hohoho~
just a couple more days and GOODBYE to my pager for good!
no more standby and activation.
i can almost smell my freedom.
080508.


not forgetting, lots of off and block leave coming this christmas/new year.
time to have real fun and sleep less.
speaking of which, i've already spent most of my time in camp sleeping.
i've been so bad this year.
oh, but santa, i still want my gift.
=)


well anyway, last saturday sentosa trip was way rad!
it was organise by non-other than mr siow qing an to celebrate his 21st birthday.
HAPPY 21st!
to kick off our day, we had a delicious meal of dim sum buffet at harbourfront.
thank god the rain didn't get heavier but the sun was still nowhere in sight.
as usual, we had beach soccer, captain's ball and juggling.
in no time, our trip was done.


next stop, vivo's city carl's jr.
with the free food and discount thanks to boon how, who would be dumb enough not to have carl's jr.
so we shared and ate alot, and i mean ALOT, FUCKING ALOT.
i couldn't even finish my triple patty burger.
like WTF, imagine that.
okay i can't resist so let me name some.
texas toothpick, criss-cut fries, beef chilli cheese fries, onion ring, milkshake and the burgers!!
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG.
the temptation; it's coming back.


after dinner, it was over to paradiz where we had lan gaming.
but not before keong, tong and zhenfai each got themselves a acoustic guitar.
hahaha. now we can seriously start a band with 4 guitarist.
ROFL!
battlefield 2 was awesome but thanks to the lousy computers the shop had, i must say we didn't enjoy fully.


home sweet home at 2am.


and i barely woke up the next day for my 4NTM duty!
i was supposed to book in by 7am.
but guess what time i actually woke up, 7.45am!!!
with my alarm not even ringing (or perhaps i didn't even hear it ringing).
i was too tired i guess.
thank god nothing happened.


photos of sentosa will be up soon.
FELKI HURRY UP UPLOAD LAH.
=D

i just woke up 5 minutes ago looking frantically for my spectacles like a normal usual day.
then i suddenly realised and thought to myself, "what the fuck? my view is so clear already."
how i wish it was a miracle, like when you suddenly woke up one day and found out that your degrees were gone.
but NO.
i just simply forgot to took off my contact lens and went to bed!!!
ROFL.
how dumb and blur can i be.
this is actually the first time i did that.

what a great stunt to kick off today's sentosa trip.
haha.
not forgetting i managed to clock 5 hours of sleep ONLY.
even when i was happily clubbing at zouk last night with my campmates and another.
i just woke up by myself strangely feeling rather not tired at all.
stupid ass body alarm.

i'm finally making use of my pathetic old lousy untuned rusty guitar by bringing it to camp for some guitar lessons.
will be learning as much as i can from darrice together with ignatius.
hopefully i can at least succeed in learning the songs of the tabs i'm bringing.
acoustic session here i come!
=)


i'm falling apart, i'm falling apart.
don't say this won't last forever.
you're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart.
don't tell me that we will never be together.
we could be, over and over.
we could be forever.

so today i was almost at home the entire day WoW-ing non-stop.
til i left for dinner with my family at 4pm at century square.
yet another sinful day as i had sakae teppanyaki and icecream.


i was home again for awhile before the rest came over to my place for studying and gaming.
i then head for supper with joanne and left them at my place.
by the time i'm home now, they have already left.
sorry.


i'm like so tired now.
but should i continue gaming or sleep??
hmm...
what a BIG ?


anyway, keong, felki, suetjing, wenyan, peggie and me were at town yesterday.
we went to meet chee and hoey at cineleisure straight after we reach.
had vilage at heeren for dinner.
the food was superb! way awesome!
i shall go there again to order MORE when i'm rich!


while chee and hoey proceed for their movie, the rest of us head to paragon.
we were suppose to change the ben sherman's shirt but it wasn't neccessary cause the S size look too weird/tight on me. lol.
next stop; lucky plaza for awhile as i brought my t-shirt for repair.
zhen fai finally joined us and off we went for mudpie and cakes at big O.
sinful indulgence for the day!
omfg, i need to exercise, for real!


afterwards it was books/magazine reading at borders.
in no time, it was home by bus 5.
had to stop at bedok reservoir and walked a distance.
my place to be exact.
as they came over for a short gaming session and photo taking session for the girls.
they left at 1.45am.
and i finally had a good night sleep of 6 hours.
=)
even after i didn't slept for the whole day the day before.