Symptoms of A Failing Heart

i hate to say this, but i skipped school today. thanks to the insufficient sleep i had cause these days i have been too busy playing my xbox as the games i ordered just came last saturday evening. as usual, i feel real guilty for not going to school. i don't know why but i feel no motivation going to school nowadays. all the projects and assignments coming up soon are totally stressful, plus, my mind is occupied with stuffs that makes me feel so sad, moody and tired. i wonder how long it'll take for this feelings to go cause i almost can't take it anymore. argh.

anyway, i've made up now that i shouldn't skip nor go to school late. i shall do my VERY BEST in this last semester and graduate well so i could at least make it to polytechnic. i've already wasted a year in normal academy and now 2 more years in ite. i won't want myself to be so useless yet again.

i just came back from soccer at tp and i hurt my ankle AGAIN. i think i better stop playing now cause i'm starting to worried about my ankle. i don't want to permanently injure it. somehow, i don't feel any pain while massaging my feet but when i started kicking the ball or running around, it just hurts alil'. i just can't burst into speed and i don't even dare to tackle. i wonder if i should actually play this coming sunday's match. hmm....

last saturday, went to the newly opened 'carl's jr' at suntec city with hock, mond, bert, qingan, paul, dick and ben. we met at 6pm before taking a train there. well, the food was delicious like always and i ordered the same thing again, double western bacon cheeseburger and beef chilli cheese fries. i felt like i was in heaven due to the fantastic food. next time round, i should really try something new or else i'd be eating the same stuffs again and again.

I LOVE CARL'S JR!!

everyone were seriously FULL after that splendid meal. just look at albert, he almost going crazy.

ben can fall asleep right after he finished his food. haha. that's one of his special skills besides the killer eyes.

halfway dining, wenyan messaged me as she just came back from macua. damn, she should have stayed there longer. it was alot quieter without her around. haha. but luckily, she did bought back a white diadora shirt for me. so a BIG THANKS to her. now, weitong, keong and me sure look GAY wearing the shirts together. hoho.

after the meal, we went carrefour to buy a cake back for james and jason as their birthday is on sunday. it was then back to tampines and to dick's house for some soccer watching time. james, jason, weitong, khiaseng, charis and wenyan came soon after. it was around 12.30am before we started the cut cake ceremony. i then went back home to play game at 1am.

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY to the non-lookalike twins, JAMES and JASON!!

the next day, my brother came in my room at 11am and interrupted my precious sleep as he was playing xbox in my room. i barely had enough sleep cause i only slept at 6.30am the previous night. the noise kept me awake and somehow, i got fed up and went to use the computer to play maple instead.

it was until 4pm before i went 844 to meet weitong and wenyan. we then proceed to cold storage. at first, we only planned to get some tibits, but suddenly, we got the idea to homecook for dinner. we bought ingredients for wanton, chicken sausage, buns and maggie mee. we started preparing the food as soon as we reach wenyan's house. weitong then went to pick up ziting and kexin back at 6.30pm while we started the dinner. the food is really good, or maybe just the sausage cause i just didn't have enough of it. haha. we should really do that again sometime. keong and felki joined us not long later. we watched tv till 11pm when they make their way to my house to watch soccer. only wenyan and weitong came and they were both sleeping throughout the whole game of westham vs man utd instead. after the game ends at around 2am, they went back home while i continuing playing my xbox till 3am before i slept.

school's tomorrow is from 8am to 5pm! damn it. i hate these long hours. and i'll be going pasir ris to book the chalet if possible during my 2 hours break. i hope there's vacancy!

damn it! i hurt my ankle again while playing soccer just now at tp. argh, somehow, the sharp pain just came back. i even got my other ankle sprained too when i fell just now. i can't afford to injure both my ankle. i think i seriously need to go x-ray incase it turns out bad. i hate this feeling, being able to play but can't fully perform my best due to this stupid ankle. i feel useless. i hope i could recover asap and play the next match against fantasy fc. and this time round, paul better play as keeper. if not, i ain't wanna be keeper again.

well, and congratulation to ben, as his cast is FINALLY out. and by finally, i mean that he has already casted it 3 times straight altogether. he's gonna go for CT scan soon to double check that his wrist is totally fine. of course we hope for the best for him or else, we won't wanna lose a keeper.

before playing soccer today, was out with emily to this recording studio near parkway. its like a house on the second floor with a huge recording room. totally awesome. its also a jamming studio and its cheap as hell. i didn't stay there for long as i had to go back for soccer. so i get to know these 2 guys who are really friendly. we watched dvd and had pizza before i left and took a cab back first. nice knowing them as they paid for most of the expenses. haa.

and yesterday, i was out at the gym with karen. we stayed there for like an hour before going for a job near jyss. we ran for 40 minutes before stopping by the gym again to get our stuffs in the locker. its the first time i ran so much and i actually didn't even feel tired at all. i was even talking most of the time while running. hmm... i guess all the jogging helps and maybe i am just too fit. hahaha. after gym, we had dinner at BK, then went tm as she wanted to get a hair clip. sent her back home before going back central park for soccer with the rowdians as usual. finally got home after playing for an hour.

yesterday was first day of school. it was totally boring! not forgetting that the new class schedule is so shitty! monday's 8am to 4.30pm, tuesday's 9am to 4pm, wednesday's 9am to 5pm, thursday's 8am to 4pm and friday's 8am to 11.30am. look at it! i hardly have any time to relax. argh. fortunately, most of the lessons are all practical with our own individual computer with msn messenger. at least something, or i'd have died with boredom. skipped s&w yesterday with yusman as ghazali didn't come. we went safra to slack awhile and play cs for an hour before going back school for another lesson. not long later, we got our class schedule on paper and was dismissed in no time.

for the rest of the afternoon, i was busy napping before meeting my mom to get my food. then when to met weitong, ziting, keong and felki at ocha and back to ziting's house playground to slack. wenyan and her brother, ah boon came to find us soon after they finished their movie, "harry potter and the goblet of fire". ziting then went back home while the rest of us went macdonald for a little supper because ah boon was treating us with his mac points. haha. finally at 11pm, we all left for home.

as for today, i just reached school not long ago and the teacher is talking non-stop now when i don't even know a single word he's talking about. erm, if you guys don't get it, i'm in school right now! there's still got 3 more hours to go and i hope the teacher release us early. oh please... we even have to do an assignment soon. damn it!

anyway, today is the last day of 'O' level papers and i'm glad for all those taking it. most of them are all free people now. seems to me it's already almost 2 years since i graduated. i still miss the old secondary school days as it was totally fun and havoc. the days i always tried to hide my bubble tea ear hole from teachers. haha. eventually, i always got caught in the end, THANKS to mr zul. asshole.

ok last sunday was dick's 19th birthday. so HAPPY BIRTHDAY dick!! hope you love your present, which is by thrashing audaz garza fc 5 - 0 in the league at puggol that day. i was the keeper for the second half and i am proud to say that i only did touch the ball twice. the opponents hardly got any chance to attack as our defense was totally inpenetratable. not forgetting the midfields who hardly let the ball passes through our half. well, we did missed a few good opportunity, or else, the scoreline could be alot worse. still, i'm glad we our play was totally awesome. i can see the future of rowdees and how good we will soon be. now is the scoreline acceptable enough?!?! FUCK YEAH!

well, i just got back from dick's house as most of us rowdians were there watching soccer matches from 9pm till now. some of them are still there to catch the big match between barcelona vs real madrid while keong, tong, james, wenyan and felki headed back first. before that, qingan, hock, mond, dick and me were at tm buying food and shopping at baleno for some clothes. i end up spending $48 for a pair of polo tees and a stripe shirt. thanks to the $100 my mom gave and extra $50 which my bro gave for my birthday, if not, i wouldn't have been so rich.

yesterday, to start off celebrating my birthday, i actually only left home at 6pm to meet karen as she was passing me my present, and at the same time, having her hair permed at a saloon nearby. stayed with her for an hour while her hair finally curls before sending her back halfway as my parents came to pick me up for dinner. anyway, thank you karen for your sweet present. then, met my bro and gina at tm before having our dinner at billy bomers. my mom had the idea of eating chinese food, but, you know me, i always say NO to chinese food whenever possible. plus, it's my big day and i wanna have something more appealing. and billy bombers just happened to be the one.

yet again, my favourite nachos with cheese. but this time, there's chilli beef on it. SWEET!!! i will never get sick of it even if i'm eating it everyday.

my THICK chicken cutlet with cheese on top. *drool*

the buffalo wings seems tempting enough with the special sauce.

after the spendid dinner, my dad drove my bro, gina and me over to katong shopping centre as qingan, hock, mond, albert, dick and chuensoon were at the ktv there. we joined them for the singing session soon enough but my bro and gina left about 2 hours as they were both tired. oh ya, to me, the ktv there, called 'teo heng' is alot better than kbox. simply because they have more rock songs than kbox! plus, their mircophones are wireless, though we still have a slight problem with its battery. hahaha. the singing was fun, and i did quite a few screaming till my voice eventually became sucky. we finally took a cab back after we stopped singing at 1am.

star idol's albert see could sing quite well! though chuen soon is still the BEST! HAHA.

the love song king.

qingan should join superstar one day. so i could see him get criticised and kicked out. haha.

overall, i felt i had a great birthday celebration but i had expected more. if more rowdians were there to join us, it could have been so much fun. i should really organise an outing to sentosa soon, best would be next week. still, i would like to say this again, thanks to all those who had celebrated my birthday with me and those who have wished me as well. you guys are the BEST!

soccer match against audaz garza fc tmr at 5pm at punggol. i'm expecting alot from this match. we shall do our best and score as much goals as possible. this time round, i think i wouldn't be playing at all as i want my ankle to heal properly. also, just like what ben said, winning this league isn't impossible if we put our hearts to it. give me a double digit scoreline and i shall treat you all for drink! haha.

happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to senget, happy birthday to you. *claps* *claps*

hohoho! i'm finally 19 years old, and it simply makes me sound OLD. 1 more year now, and i would consider myself no longer a teenager. but still, i'm young at heart with lots of things i've yet to done or accomplished. there's still a long journey ahead and i hope i can be successful in what i do in years to come.

ok yesterday, most rowdians and i had a mini countdown and birthday celebration for me. thanks to keong and felki who took the effort to buy a small chocolate cake from prima deli for me. and there was also my favourite nachos with cheese which they bought from 7-11 while the rest of us were playing soccer at central park. needless to say, i was TOUCHED and of course HAPPY.

later on, i hope i got the chance to go out with most of the rowdians for a splendid dinner or whatever. as long as there's food and fun. maybe dinner again with my family and then supper at katong. i guess i will be totally FAT for today, and my throat just don't get better.

BIG THANKS to all who had wished me happy birthday!! not just this year, but all the previous years. i really appreciate it all. not forgetting, i would be accepting presents from today onwards. hahaha.

pardon my hairs and my boxer, it's my birthday costume. haha.

chocolate cake have never been so delicious.

NACHOS!! NACHOS!! NACHOS!! the hot melted cheese are always the best dip.

big thanks to these 3, not forgetting the other rowdians too.

here's the update i'm sure most of you are waiting for, despite me being quite busy this entire week. on sunday, it was our big day, our rowdees' league match against blue devils fc at punggol. it's been so long since we had our last field game. anyway, most of you should know that i got my ankle sprained last friday as i was trying out for keeper. it was frustrating!! in the end, i did play that match for like 20 minutes. the final result was us winning 9 - 3. it was good, but not good enough. the opponents had only 9 men so i was expecting alot from us. still, i'm sure we did our best, the next match this coming sunday shall be a better one, alot better, if not, a thrashing one. WE CAN DO IT!! WO MEN HENG QIANG!!! i hope my ankle recovers by that time cause i really look forward for the match. a fantastic win, could be the best birthday present for me. for those who had no idea, my 19th birthday is 18th november, which is this coming friday. so remember to buy me presents please!!! hahahaha.

after the match last sunday, my dad came to pick my brother, gina and me up to go ang mo kio for the vegetarian dinner as it was my grandpa's 70th birthday. the food was delicious as always, not forgetting my favourite dish which is some kind of fried mushroom with butter and stuffs. it was a great family day though all my little cousins are kept following around me and pestering me, like usual. plus i was even sitting together with them on the children's table during dinner.

the birthday dude, my grandpa.

the birthday sure looks delicious but i didn't got the chance to eat it. i was too busy configuring my auntie's handphone that no one left a piece for me. so sad.

my greatgrandma. the one whose been taking great care of me since i was an infant. i still remember during primary school days, how she used to buy me food minutes before my school ends so i wouldn't have to deal with the increasing crowd and eat straight away. i owe alot to her. and thats how i got FAT.

last monday, 14th of november was weitong's 19th birthday. so HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASSHOLE. we were out counting down to his birthday on sunday at 863's carpark together with keong, wenyan, felki, nini, ziting and ke xin. they bought a birthday cake and weitong and i were the one cutting it as my birthday was near too. or should i say they are just cheapskate, save money so during my birthday no need to buy. HAHAHA.

the birthday gays holding hand in hand to cut the cake. we call ourselves the 'november alliance'.

yum yum yum yum
ALWAYS wipe your mouth after meal. haha.

the car park detectives. we love spying on couples parking their car up here in the middle of the night.

that was my 5th packet. ok i'm kidding. but wenyan is holding her 5th packet though. hahaha.

eng keong is stress because felki EATS TOO MUCH!!

everyone loves to browse my handphone because it always have interesting things for all to see.

weitong is stress too even though its his birtday. i wonder why.

yesterday was out my band at city hall. we actually waited at delifrance for approximately 4 hours before we started jamming cause we were waiting for wan's manager who would be joining us. we spent that 4 hours creating some beats, listening to music, talking crap and nto forgetting wan showing us his powerful magic. he's really good, i took afew videos of it and i will show to you guys if i see you. anyway, about the band, now we're still short of people but 3 of us, emily, wan and i are fixed already. plus amanda would be joining us after her 'O's. we playing originals written by emily and its mostly powerpop/emo/rock i should say. not really the genre i want but i can deal with that. the outcome of the jamming was great, we had our first song, "never forget" almost done. i actually love it now, if only you guys can hear it. we also tried out a cover "sugar, we're going down" by fall out boy but due to the lousy equipments there, we sounded like shit. or maybe i sounded like shit on drums. i'll have to improve on that.

wan the magic man!!

emily the vocalist a.k.a sparsmatic girl. hahaha.

ok just now, i was out at tampines interchange at 4pm with keong, weitong and felki. we walked around tm for awhile before wenyan came to join us after her school. took a train to simei to have our kfc dinner. play pool. an hour later, went back tampines again to play arcade until 10pm and then off to fetch ziting. we walked back home and here i am. the rest of the rowdians are having soccer now and i'm sad that i couldn't join them. this feeling suck. my ankle better recover or i would have to force myself to go see a doctor or a chinese physician.

oh ya, my exam results are out and i got 3.0 for my GPA again!! i've been getting 3.0 for the third time now. how come it doesn't improve?? i wanna do better!! now i just have to work hard during the next sememster if i wants it to improve. still, i'm glad i got an A for my 'statistic and matrices' but C for java and B for my IAP. HAHAHA. hmmm, B is good enough, considering the SHITTY COMMENTS i got. i guess i'm not a bad employee after all. HOHO!!!

FUCK! i think i got cheated. i was at pavilion playing pool with weitong and wenyan before going to the game shop, 'S Powerhouse' at blk 505 together with wenyan's brother. they didn't sell xbox games and i suddenly got curious and asked them about the price for changing the cd drive of my xbox. they told me its around $120!!! WHAT THE FUCK! i wasted my extra $40 over at simlim. FUCK IT!! i'm never going back that shop again! NEVER!! FUCKING CHEATERS!! don't they know that a mere $40 is already fucking hard for a POOR person like me to save up? damn it. plus! they didn't even properly fully repaired my xbox. i'm gonna BURN that MOTHER FUCKING shop down. argghhh.....

ok enough of this DISTURBED stuff. i'm too pissed to mentioned it again. now, i'm over at wenyan's house. planning to watch "into the blue" on vcd and maybe play maplestory when wenyan's done doing her project on the computer. hahaha. suddenly, i got alil' addicted to that game. i know its lame, but do you think i give a shit about what you think? nono.

oh yeah, yesterday was at mediacorp studio with whole lot of people which consist mostly of rowdees and kukus to support albert at his first show. the thing is, all 28 of us were wearing red cause its albert's fan club color. it was really WEIRD seeing all of us walking to interchange to take the train. almost everyone were looking at us in a sort of way that thinks we are retardeds. hahaha. but still, we're proud of it and i'm sure albert is too. cause judging by the looks at the show, i should say we're the only fans that looks really united. i can see that albert was really touched too. anyway, most probably we'll be going back there again to support him IF he makes it to the next round which will be aired on 30th november. so guys, PLEASE vote for him when that time comes. he'll need all the votes he could get.

anyway, our soccer league organised by asian bookie fc will be starting this sunday. i'm actually looking forward for it but i'm still quite pressured as i wonder if the other opponents are that good, i don't wanna lose this league. and thanks to paul, now i'm going to become the goalkeeper instead of my normal forward position. cause ben's wrist is too injured to play and paul just suddenly drop himself out. damn it. now, i don't know whether i could really make it as the keeper cause i'm still not used to diving and stuffs. i hope my basketball skills may give me a little advantage over it, plus hope the extra training tomorrow may come to use or else i won't wanna disappoint my teammates. for the sake of rowdees!, i shall do you guys proud as the goalkeeper. if not, paul PLEASE be the goalkeeper like usual.

2 PLEASES in my post today.
make them come true.

firstly, i would like to say is, MAN UTD just KICKED CHELSEA'S ASS by 1 goal. HOHOHO!! like i'm starting to believe in man utd once again. so please stop disappointing me and win me some money.!!

ok, i FINALLY got back from malaysia last wednesday night. i know i'm alil' out-dated cause its already monday now. but i was just too lazy to blog unless i have the photos uploaded together, and i wasn't been able to do that until today. even when i have the photos with me now, i simply feel so lazy to post them all up cause there's like 136 of them!! but i'll try to upload most of it.

anyway, the whole genting trip was CHAOTIC, CRAZY, WILD and FUN!! its consists of me, ben, tong, james, paul, wenyan, peggie, amanda and maggie.
throughout the whole trip, we've been continously eating, shopping, walking around aimlessly, clubbing, drawing tattoos, take pictures, stoning, theme parks and more. we were occupied with so many stuffs to do, except for some of them, who preferred to stay in the hotel bed to sleep. haha. and the visits to 'ripley's believe it or not' and 'haunted adventure' was totally quite an eye-opener and indeed a wonderful experience. not forgetting that the theme park were great too, but too bad the huge roller coaster wasn't working when we were there. it's been so long since i ever had my heart beating so fast that i could almost felt it coming out (not counting the time i had crushes on girls, haha). the 'safari' club over there is awesome too!! they had this live band and they fucking rock. they could almost play any type of music, regardless of language. seriously, i would love to be there again but hope i won't get myself high like last time. hoho.

i would love to talk more about the genting trip but there's just too many to note down. if only you guys who missed out were there. we should organise another rowdees' overseas trip soon cause that'll be so much fun. i'll just post as many photos up as possible and you can see for yourself. for now, i'm out! i'll be back soon with more updates.

pardon me for the lack of captions or some lame captions cause i'm totally out of ideas on what to say. if you're not pleased with it, then don't read my blog!

the beginning of the end.

the 7 hours of agonizing bus ride.

no one could resist food. cheap yet delicious food.
paul had his hands up my ass when this photo was taken.

i almost thought wenyan could fit perfectly in that chair.

HAIL KING BEN!!!

ben just thought the 'luckiest chair in the world' could miraclely heal his broken wrist.

pain in the ass or pain for pleasure?

it stated there, 'the luckiest chair in the world'. but i don't consider it lucky as all our heavy weight were on it. lucky my ass.

ben will look like that in 10 years time.

come, come. take picture, take picture.

i wish wenyan, along with her voice, really got eaten by it.

this is how strong i am. seriously.

paul plans to open a farm together with peggie.

paul loves to take pictures that has to do with heads. get what i mean? HEADS!!

the votex chamber, where you will walk senget.

they did this the whole night for 6 hours straight.

the greatest view of all.

piss to the world!

once again, the world depends alot on me.

better off without the stupid pose.


shibby.

peek-a-boo. though wenyan could never reach that, not in this life time.

i wonder if guitar were already invented during the time of the stone age.

wenyan loves dinosaur!! everybody knows that.

ben never seems to get all excited over s.h.e.

i believe it couldn't fly at all.

theme park.

i wonder how fast it could go.

poor car.

ben loves tattoos.

its not how fast you go, its how far.

i would prefer weitong to look like this forever.

HERO!



'sleep-knot'.

scary shit.

erm.....like usual, ben is looking elsewhere. or maybe he isn't.

cool.

crazy monkeys.

wenyan is always seen doing the same pose over and over and over again.

*cough* *cough*

the camera's len almost got busted out.

boredom in the cable car leads to this.


this height is enough to make yours balls shrink.

this is what most call, 'gays'

like always.

the time of our life.

fuck face.

FUCK weitong. yeah, thats right!!

ben enjoys riding!!! you know what i mean.

like brother, like sister.

the horse looks tired.



the siblings.


'cute' is NOT the word.

i was told that i looked like a MAT! mat tappered!!!

drunk and delusional.

preparing to leave.


james hates the camera.

we always occupied the whole stair way.



james finally joined us for photo taking sessions.

we are the posers.