Symptoms of A Failing Heart

without much considerations, i finally signed up for prudential's insurance saving plan or whatever it's called. $70 per month for 25 years is no problem now but i doubt i can handle when i ORD and start studying. hopefully i cna get a decent part-time job to substain myself.


anyway, i just got back from signing that plan with stephanie, my financial advisor now. she's lucky to have called me last tuesday. i was approached by her a year ago when i was about to enlist for NS. i actually told her to contact me after i got enlisted but i totally forgot. even after i met her, she seems familiar but i still couldn't remember anything. she called me with perfect timing as i was just about to go find some other financial planner to sign up.


for your information, the saving plan gets you around $5-10k more than normal bank's interest after 25 years. so if you're interested, it's a good deal. i may not believe this kind of stuff at first but somehow, it's time to try.


after my signing at TM macdonald's, visited joanne for awhile before going century square to buy handphone (nokia 2626) for weili and i. we actually got the voucher to buy it $10 cheaper but only the pink color are available. so instead of feeling GAY, i got the blue one from nokia shop instead.


and there goes my money. i feel like i'm overspending these days. spend too much on food, expenses and with deduction of WoW's subscription of $120 every 6 months and now the $70 per month, i better start to save up more. i need to erase that rich feeling. rofl. god damn, next month's pay better arrive faster!


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yesterday's tank live firing was FUCK. i thought we could have ended early and book out if everything goes as planned. but NO, the shooting was bad and slow. apparently, we only book out early morning. worse of all, there is most probably gonna be a reshoot again soon! for fuck sake!


so thanks to the live firing, i missed khiaseng's 21st birthday bbq at pasir ris. argh. sorry man. HAPPY BIRTHDAY though.

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you make me wonderless.
<3

instead of booking out today.
here i am having nights out only. how pathetic.
my only way out was at this lan shop opposite ten mile.
my friends are busy playing dota while i'm checking my mails and stuffs, wow-ing, finish my previous draft and updating this post.


WHY CAN'T I BOOK OUT?
why must the tank live firing be on a fucking saturday!?!?!
for fuck sake, i'm not even the one firing (i've fired enough already).
tell me why.


no friday night soccer!!
SHIT!


HOPEFULLY we're able to book out on saturday night if we're fast enough and everything goes well.
otherwise it would be sunday morning. =(
but we're lucky we manage to skip AHM(army half marathon) and we have off on monday.


back in camp we just started our ACCT (advanced close combat training) few days ago.
it was fun, we get to throw/slam each other around more than 30 times!
too bad for me, my partner is a larger built and more muscular.
thanks to him who threw me around so much yesterday, my body ACHES LIKE FUCK now.
bruised and battered all over!
THANK GOD today's ACCT was about knife point defense instead of throwing again.
otherwise i wonder if i can actually survice another fall.
rofl.


had nights out on tuesday and i actually went to the movie ALONE. caught 'bourne ultimatum' myself and to me, it's the best out of the whole trilogy. anyway, it's my FIRST TIME to EVER watch a movie alone. how pathetic. my friends weren't interested as they're all busy playing pool and then dota. i wonder if i'll do it again next time.


nevertheless, how awful i'm feeling right now.
these emptiness and sorrow.
argh.
that undescribable feelings yet again.
how sad.
when will the suffering ends?


am i still dreaming?
did i really tried too hard?
well, i need to set my life straight back.
no more senget.
for real.


<3

in no time, we were all tired and it was home sweet home.


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about friday, i was out to meet zhenfai, joanne, meifang and gang for fireworks at marina straight after i booked out. well, not a bad display of spectecular fireworks though i was hoping for it could be better. despite having 7 of us, we manage to squeeze into a car to have punggol nasi lemak. it's my first time trying it and i must say its rather AWESOME.


soon, it was back to tampines as i send joanne back.
home was next. yawn.
what a day.
oh my god, i can't feel my legs anymore.
ROFL.

i dread going back to camp, like always.
so early.
so many things left undone.
so useless.
so insignificant.
so nothing.
so empty.
that sucky feeling.
i believe theses 5 days in camp is gonna be a long agonizing one.
how can i pull through?
i don't know.

monday
WoW-ed whole afternoon. came out in the evening for dinner with joanne before i book in. got ourselves food at 828. restocked my supplies at prime mart before i sent her home and then back to ocha to find weitong where we finally booked in through cab.


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tuesday
12km run in the morning was CRAZY. so lazy yet i have to force myself to complete the run. had to settle OVM in the afternoon which was bored since only 6/10 of my platoonmates were there. 35 man in my company were downed with sore eyes!! rofl. spent the night watching 'supernatural' and 'ghost whisperer' on my psp before lights out.


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wednesday
our own NDP parade in the early morning. resting time for the rest of the day before we booked out slightly later than expected. met up with zhenfai at jurong mrt station with weitong as the 3 of us went to lucky plaza where i had my coverall's zip finally repaired. well, not before we searched for that shop high and low. lol. i should have phone my friend for directions earlier. my bad.


on our way back, bumped onto keong and felki. so all of us went back home to change first while i made a quick stop to tm myself before we meet at ocha again and then start our usual night soccer with the rowdians.


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thursday
i didn't really catch much sleep and before i could even rest more, my parents wanted us to go visit our ancestors' ashes. i had to literally drag my ass there despite feeling moody since i still had NDP later on.


and thats it! NDP has finally ended in a flash. which means:
-no more off for monday! (how fucking sad)
-no more taking care of the pledge takers whom my platoon has been doing all these while.
-no more free KFC/pizza hut/SFI out ration
-no more free milo at show village
-no more free food from the pledge takers themselves


argh. its like so empty.
nevertheless, NDP was a BLAST! such a huge sense of achievement. and of course i was wow-ed by the performances and dynamic/fireworks display, just like any primary school kid would. it makes me proud, so proud.


anyway, after NDP, joined zhenfai and meifang for dinner at suntec's food republic. we then head back tampines together with weitong and suetjing while zhenfai went back his hostel to stayover. and i continued WoW-ing till late before i slept.






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friday
WoWed the whole morning. finally stopped cause i went to meet joanne after her work as we head to orchard for dinner and mudpie at 'the big O'. such a great place to dine and be FAT. rofl.


next stop was image 2001 but couldn't really find a decent piece to buy. macbeth shoes on 20%! but too bad i don't see any nice new designs. in the end i bought a saosin and alesana tee at the shop below instead. i just couldn't help buying them even though i've already got tons of band t-shirt. fuck, i really need to save money!


we walked abit more before we head back tampines. on the way back, we battled in hokkien and i must admit i was thrashed. haha. god damn it, i indeed need to brush up on my hokkien.


qiuo? qiuo ne mo mo ho gao gan!


so i sent her home, then back home to changed to prepare for night soccer again. due to my contacts lens being were so dry from the start and giving me problems, i took off with khiaseng's bike at the start, to go joanne's place for a sec where i clensed my contact lens. thanks again!


soccer ended at 2am where we slacked at 7-11 before home sweet home.




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saturday/today
the day we just celebrated albert's 19th birthday.
anyway, an advance happy 19th bert/bird day to him!


for the celebration itself, i met mond, albert and charis 2pm at clock. we head over to interchange to find hock, kuku, wenyan and peggie where we had lunch at tm's foodcourt. weitong, jason, qingan, ben, alex, black and sharon met us at mrt station before we head over to cineleisure. we got tickets for 'rush hour 3' at 6.30pm. with 1 hour left to spend before the movie starts, we went upstairs to spend the time playing cs. oh, the good old days.


'rush hour 3' is really hilarious, though the storyline is rather simple and so predictable, similiar to both the prequels. once the movie ended, went outside to find keong, zhenfai, felki and suetjing. after some time discussing and brainstorming on where we should have our dinner, we at last settled at heeren's billy bomber instead.


what a splendid meal. FULLED, yet a small hole in my pocket. =[



now, most of them are at amy's brother's bar at pasir ris park watching EPL while here i am. homed. because my eyes are so tired and i'm lazy to travel there.


blogging is the only way i spent my time.
and you guys must be surprise why i wasn't WoW-ing instead.
i have no idea as well.


tomorrow is book in day at 5pm!!
my morale is so fucking low now.
next week start, 4NTM, live firing, outfield!
argh. fuck.
oh god, spare me.

lately, there's been the outbreak of sore-eyes in my camp. approximately 12 people (3 from my platoon) have been infected and the numbers are rising high. this results in a shortage of manpower for our NDP yesterday which i was needed to go to show village instead of suntec to help out. the sad thing about that is i got no free KFC for dinner!!!! rofl.


though its good to get free MC through sore eyes, still i hope everyone recovers fast. as next week is pretty much a holiday week and i'm sure no one wants to go out with a sore eye. well, not me at least.


anyway, yesterday morning went for the dumbest event ever. well, i met up with wenyan at 7am first for macdonald's breakfast first before she went to work at her CPF building while i proceed to marina platform for my battalion's photo taking session for NDP.


it sure was lame, to wake up so early for the photo taking session which starts at 8.30am when our NDP ONLY begins at around 4pm! inbetween there's like so many hours left to do whatever! so instead of joining my friends for lan gaming, i prefer to go home to take some stuffs and WoW instead. imagine going to and fro twice in a day. IT AIN'T FUN.


as i predicted, there wasn't much plan from rowdees even thought its a saturday. how sad. so i left for tampines alone to find joanne as she knocked off at 10pm and sent her back. and i'm sorry we walked back, i know your feet hurts.


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as for now, what a BORING SUNDAY again! well, i've have been WoW-ing since last night till late afternoon today and that is why i feel rather sick and tired of it now. if not, i wouldn't even have the time to blog. i'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. argh.


i just don't know why i'm so lazy. i still have to go downstairs to sew my army uniforms and collect my coverall back to bring it for repair. i wonder if i even have the time! damn it. plus, i'm suppose to meet afew of the rowdians for movie 'disturbia' at 7.20pm. there's so little people joining and i'm actually having second thoughts. and mostly because i want to watch 'the simpsons' first instead. how how how?!?!?!
someone entertain me please.


WTS (Want To Sell) Senget's Life
any offers?


p.s. i finally pass my 2nd year SOC!
only left IPPT to conquer.
i hope i can fucking do it!


my legs hurt/ache like fuck.
fuck.