Symptoms of A Failing Heart

yesterday was a real fulfilling day.
with the combined power of a tough gym session with zhenfai in the noon, a filling dinner with my parents and a beautiful game of soccer with a few rowdians.
a day worthwhile.
=)


as for this evening.
i was out with james, ron, mond, tiannee, peggie, felky, wenyan and her friend at ochard.
we had wheel lock place's 'fish n co' for dinner as a farewell dinner for ron whose going to thailand for his ATEC soon.
desert was at 'big o' when tong and stephanie rejoined us again.
and that marks the end of my sinful meal.
but it was a cheap meal considering i shared everything with felky as we're both on budget/diet.
haha.
nevertheless, i need to work out again soon!
anyway, home was next by bus 5.


plans for tomorrow: unknown
hopefully activities are all lined up for this week.
i want a deserving good break before i go back to camp.


below are a few photos taken during botak jones on sunday and anderson ice cream on monday.
more photos from suetjing's birthday once i get it from her.
if you see this, please send it asap.
you slow poke! heh.

waiting for your call, i'm sick, call i'm angry
call i'm desperate for your voice
listening to the song we used to sing
in the car, do you remember
butterfly, early summer
it's playing on repeat, just like when we would meet
like when we would meet

cause i was born to tell you i love you
and i am torn to do what i have to, to make you mine
stay with me tonight

stripped and pollished, i am new, i am fresh
i am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
cause every breath that you will take
when you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, what's your fantasy?
(what's your, what's your...)

cause i was born to tell you i love you
and i am torn to do what i have to, to make you mine
stay with me tonight

and i'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
and i'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
and i'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
and i'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
(i know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

cause i was born to tell you i love you
and i am torn to do what i have to, to make you mine
stay with me tonight

cause i was born to tell you i love you
and i am torn to do what i have to, to make you mine
stay with me tonight
(i know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

omfg.
i bought a $139 atticus sweater, a $75 zara stripe hoodie and a $16 plain white tshirt today.
i guess i did act on impulse but those were something i really want/need.
fucking spend like a chick.
and now, i'm literally BROKE.
it's making me moody.
fuck.


we got our ATEC stage 2 result today at pasir laba camp.
we scored a redcon 2B.
not exactly that well but what done is done.
plus stage 1's redcon 1.
our overall result becomes redcon 2A, which is what expected of us.
good enough.

okay i'm deadbeat.
i guess i'll have an early night.
night people.

happy 18th birthday to suetjing!
time to grow up and settle the divorce papers.
HAHA.


in no time, some of us rowdians and the lua family will be out to botak jones for dinner to mark the birthday of the youngest, most immature and childish miss lua. hoho.


in the meantime, i'm starting to feel the tireness slowly creeping up on me.
what a late night again i had yesterday with weitong, keong, wenyan and felki.
it started off with a splendid dinner at alex's house together with stefanie.
the 2 then left for their nightlife while the rest of us head to safra.
bowled for a game before my bro came to drive us back at 1.20am.
bro and weitong head home.
we got the car and travelled to hongkong cafe for viewing of man utd thrashing match against newcastle and mini snack.
picked up alex at boat quay before having 'you tiao' at geylang.
back to tampines where we talked crap till 6am.
home and thats it.


that sums up only 8 hours of sleep for 2 days.
which is equivalent to most people 1 day's of sleep.
ROFL.


oh, i almost forgot.
i finally got my double eyelid on my right eye back!!
muahahah.
it has been MIA for years now.
i've always tried means to get it back but to no valid.
then suddenly, it just returns to me.
how weird, but i'm glad.

in case some of you guys don't know/have, i manage to find these on dbl o's website.
which we went and took on cny.

good morning people!
so now a few of us and me are at wenyan's house as we stay over last night.
this includes alex, weitong, keong, felki and stefanie.
it was only after a great night of soccer when we went home to bathe before coming here.
whereas alex came after clubbing.
well, we practically watch all the old photos of rowdees took years ago.
it was absolutely lame, trying to show all the pathetic photos to stefanie that weitong took.
which in turns, kinda shoot back to some of us as well.
hahaha.
all the memories that rowdees once have, how vividly sweet.


even though i was the last to sleep at 6.30am, i'm the first to wake up!
bunch of lazy ass until now still sleeping like pigs.
WEAK.
hoho.


okay on the bigger picture here..
ATEC stage 2 is finally over.
WAHAHAHAHAHA.
the 4D3N was hard to go by but all of us manage to pull through.
i must say it was BORING as usual as a tankee.
being a trooper is so much more fun like playing real life counterstrike.
i feel i didn't contribute much for this ATEC.
lol.

alil' background for you here.
ATEC is where we had laser system mounted on our armoured vehicle and troopers.
and fight it off against real enemy.
here's what i did.


day 1
move out from camp at 1pm.
set camo net.
wait.
moved out at 1am.


day 2
reach objective at 8am.
first to die.
wait for revive.
waited 12 hours until mission one ends.
consolidate all the dead at 10pm.
wait for next mission.
wait.
and wait.


day 3
woke up at 7am.
tank got stuck.
stripped track.
moved out soon but met no action at al.
mission two ended.
deploy tank and park somewhere.
mission three starts.
wait for enemy.
wait.
wait.
enemy came.
shoot.
miss.
miss.
miss.
miss.
miss.
miss............
frustrated.
stop shooting.
wait again for more enemy.
none came.
wait and sleep.
mission three ends.

day 4
gathered at 6am.
finally briefing and photo-taking.
back to camp at 8am.
ORD lo!


thats all i have to say.
as you can see, for the whole exercise, i've been waiting most of the time.
which i spent it by munching not my combat ration, but the morale-boasting food that i bought.
imagine wasting my time while the troopers were having so much joy killing the weak enemy.
oh, and i manage to not shit during the whole exercise which is a miracle.
though the toilet was totally destroyed when i came back and bomb. hahaha.
sadly, i didn't strike ang bao toto.
FUCK.


so ATEC is finally over.
fuck it. we're done.
hopefully we did well.
maybe get a redcon 2A.
a few more small exercise to go.
then possibly taiwan.
morale high.
and ORD lo!!!


P.S. i need a diet!
and a good plan to start of my saturday.


by the time i ended this post.
they have still yet to wake up.
FUCKING HELL.

my friend wanted me to advertise this for him.


20 male
good lover
looking for young sexy slim rich female.


interested?
meet the criteria?
let me know.
ROFL.


anyway, what a BORING SATURDAY AFTERNOON!!!
rowdians plan for today is only midnight movie .
so we are only coming out in the evening.
i need something to do right now.
argh.


not forgetting, big ang bao draw for toto is coming next week!
HOHOHO.
c'mon, let me strike!!!

about yesterday, our post-valentine celebration.
big thanks! to wenyan who personally came to drive us back when we booked out at 8pm.
anyway, tong and me have already paid for your movie ticket so i don't owe you.
lol.
so we got home to change before heading out again to town.
ocha bubble tea ftw!
3 couples includes hock and janice, keong and felki, tong and stefanie.
2 mix and match pairs are alex, wenyan, suetjing and me.
hohoho.
walked to interchange and took a train to somerset.
dinner at long john before we for our show, 'ps love you' at cineleisure at 12.05am.


honestly, i can never imagine myself watching love story movies.
but it was purely weitong's splendid idea and the majority agrees.
so what the hell.
it was rather touching but not touching enough for my tears to drop.
but the girls did cry, as usual.
quite a sweet storyline.
a quite worthy and must watch movie for couple.
where's the LOVE!?!?!


show ended and we slacked for awhile on the streets of orchard.
didn't took long before we realized we were so tired.
that we end up going home after much discussion.
and i haven't slept so well for awhile.

seriously, i'm so FUCKING MOODY right now!
mainly because my long weekend of CNY is almost over!
how time flies so fucking fast.
and that i have to book in early morning like 7.30am tomorrow!
ARGH!! FUCK FUCK SHIT FUCK!!!
i've never felt this way for so long.


i'm was so moody the entire day that i spent most of my time loathing away.
eating, napping, eating and nap again.
it made me feel less human.
i almost lost my sanity.
plus the no plans for the day made it ever MORE WORSE!
i didn't even have the mood to WoW.
i just wanna vent my moodiness on something.
let me kill something at least.


what a pathetic sad sunday.
like a bad omen.

060208, wednesday, eve of CNY
at last, book out day.
booked out 10 in the morning and proceed to parkway parade all by myself.
finally got the 2 different lip ring that i wanted.
would have bought the awesome ear stud but thinking that i was about to extend back larger after ORD and that it was way expensive, i changed my mind.
home and it was a typical home-cooked reunion dinner at home.
rather different compared to past years when we always go to my auntie's house for the dinner.
bored and went to felki's house to find wenyan whose doing her nails there.
weitong joined not long after.


i was just there to show them the full collection of edison's photo (mind you, i have the most updated one of 400+ of them) which my friend sent me.
ROFL.
i'm not showing off here.
but nevertheless, now i know it's all fucking REAL.
how disappointing. (for fuck sake, not the size of his.... but the whole incident).
all those involved, their image in me has been DIMINISHED.


so i stay and ate macdonald's before i left at around 12am.


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070208, thursday, CNY day 1
woke up early as usual for the visiting.
just 3 stops.
by the second stop, i've already earned quite a bit of ang pao but ALOT of fatigue.
so after i went home after the last stop at 3pm, i KOed and nap till 7pm!


woke up again to prepare myself to go felki's house for steamboat.
well, more like clearing their steamboat's leftover for them.
lol.
it was part cny celebration and part fiona's 21st birthday celebration.




stayed till almost 11pm before auntie, dwight, keong, felki and me proceed to starbucks to chill.
wenyan and suetjing joined us there.
macdonald was next, where we bumped onto zhenfai and meifang as well.
it was not before 1am before we left for clock.
auntie and dwight left first while the rest of us chit-chatted and cam whore-d through the night.
zhenfai and meifang was next to leave.
then the rest of us made our way to cheers to share problem.
finally home and slept at 4am!






























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080208, friday, CNY day 2
2 stops of house visiting that day before we went back home.
because some people will be visiting us on our place instead.
so more people came over at 4pm to increase my amount of ang pao $!!!


i myself left at 5pm first to go keong's house for visiting.
met alex, weitong and wenyan there.
gamble for a short while and i lost $2!!
fuck. it may seem like a small amount, but i'm such a poor boy now.
=(
but no worries, i shall win it all back soon!!
HUAT AH!


left keong's house at 7pm when my parents came to pick me up to go to my uncle's place.
thank god the family conflict didn't get worse there.
at least better than we expected.
in no time, back to tampines to fetch my grandma, auntie and niece (my dad's god-daughter).


dad dropped me off at O bar/dbl o, while the rest of my family went to lau pa sa to chill.
so clubbing was fun!!, attendance was full as usual.
but the club wasn't as crowded.
though a few of us got wasted, so the night was rather early for some of them.
wasted list: keong, wenyan, weitong, james, qingan, sharon.
hahahaha.
i guess for the masterplan for next year's cny would be STRICTLY NO ALCOHOL.
still, some of us still manage to enjoy ourselves dancing with each other again.
or i should i say grinding with the same old guys AGAIN.
WHERE'S THE LADIES AT?!?!


by 3am, the club was closed early and so were some of us.
group by group we left.
but zhenfai, tettet, meifang and me had macdonald's breakfast before we called it a night.





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miraclely, everybody manage to wake up even after our late nights out.
so our timing to meet at alex's house was 1.30pm.
everyone reach around 2.30pm.
we had our share of steamboat, gaming, tv of jay's concert and photo-taking.
not forgetting the HUGE TROUBLE of getting everybody to decide what movie to watch that night.
rowdians are all indecisive.
lmao.
after much brainstorming and discussion, end up watching kungfu dunk at 11.45pm.


















after alex's place, the girls went back by car which wenyan drove.
while the guys all took a cab there.
destination: wenyan's house.
over there, a few of us watch lame ass videos on youtube while the rest started their gambling streak.
my bro and i left first at 6pm as our cousin were at our place.
and also to prepare our place for the incoming visit by rowdians.




as usual, at my place was home-cooked dinner by my mom.
oh, all my FAVOURITE YUMMY FOOD.
watched soccer, play guitar, new updated 400+ edison's photo viewing and more photo-taking.
by 10.15pm, we left for our movie at century square.



















as for the movie, IT SUCKS SO BAD.
REALLY.
DON'T WATCH IT.
i really want to complain!
ok maybe some scene is funny, but it still doesn't make up for the lameness and exaggerate-ness.
script is crap and too unrealistic.
i believe i can make a better one.
i regret not listening to some of my friends to not watch it.
LOL.
we should have caught cj7 instead.
and honestly, it has been a fucking long time since i ever can't wait for a movie to end.
seriously, it's not worth your money.
just catch it on dvd.


anyway, after movie, some of us proceed to have supper of prata.
next stop, central park's fitness corner for more slacking.
lame talks and jokes as usual.
and i really can't wait to film our very own rowdees' lame videos.
ROFL.
i lasted until 4am before i make my way home myself.
yawn.