Symptoms of A Failing Heart

IT'S THE AFTERNOON!!
and i've only just woke up!
what a miracle!
finally i had a pretty decent sleep.
but it would have been close to perfect if my bro was't WoW-ing in my room.
damn it.
OH, AND IT'S FRIDAY!!! (as if everyday isn't the same to me)
BOOK OUT DAY FOR MOST NSF!! so sad.
ORD LO!!!


but i had to make my way back to camp later in the day for the ORD function.
hmm... actually i felt kinda lazy but i doubt i could give it a miss.
cause i'm sure my platoonmates would be nagging like fuck.
not forgetting there's almost my WoW guild gathering for steamboat at night.
so many plans yet so broke.
i even had to lend money from zhenfai to pay my handphone bills.
i feel so useless.
HOW??
my only hope now would be working at 'timbaland' with the other rowdians.
i need money, BADLY!


stripped of my pride, and left for dead.
i'm so tired of apologizing to myself for you.
and what you've done to me.
and i've tried, to forgive myself for caring about you.
there's nothing i can do...

only a bath a day. heh.
god, i'm feeling so fucking dirty.
i know what you guys are thinking.
but don't say it, keep it to yourself.
haha.
and i haven't shave in days.
i look like a freaking old man now.
so rugged, yet cool.
rofl.


soccer tonight.
time to exercise my feet after sitting down for so long.
oh, i've finish watching supernatural season 3 at last.
well, its the season finale yet again.
hopefully the new season will launch soon.
i'm missing it.


i almost forgot.
it was hoey 19th and jasmine lo's 17th birthday yesterday, 28th may.
so A HUGE HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BOTH OF THEM!!


take my hand we'll disappear.
take my hand we'll disappear from it all.

I GOT INTO NAFA!!!!!!!
WAHAHAHAHAHA.
after so many unknown number calling me, especially jobs agency.
the call i've been anticipating for so long has finally arrived.
i was stunned upon hearing the call was from NAFA.
and just before that i was literally stoned due to WoW-ing the whole day.
the combined power made me speechless for awhile.


the guy on the other line was like "do you want to know your test result?"
i was like "WTF, fuck yeah i do", of course that wasn't what i actually said. haha.
so yes i'm in, and now i have to wait for their letter to arrive for more details.
i guess i'll most probably start in july, hopefully.
i don't want to keep rotting at home, unless i could get a job.


still, i felt i wasn't as excited as i thought i would be.
probably because most people have been telling me how taking design wasn't such a good idea.
and the fact that 3 years of schooling AGAIN really feels kinda draggy.
i seriously wonder if i can made it through and graduate at the end.
argh. age can be such a huge factor when it comes to my future.
i guess i'll just take a step at a time and hopefully everything turns out well.
or at least better than i expected.
=)


burnt out!
thats what i'm feeling right now.
due to the non-stop excessive WoW-ing which has taken a toll of my body.
it got worse when i took over boon to raid ealier on from 8pm - 12am.
the fun yet exhausting raiding days with my guild are back.
i wondered if i should join them back at raiding again.
such a good opportunity for me to be a loot whore now. heh.


and i had my dinner infront of my computer.
it's been so long since i ever done that.
and my mom wasn't happy about it at all!
but i couldn't care less because i was so glued to my game.
so much that i even forgot to check my 4D lottery result.
rofl. too bad i still didn't strike. FUCK.
somehow, the hardcore gamer in me is coming back?
i have to stop it before i...... hurt.. myself..




so why'd you have to go?
is there something i could say to make you turn around?
cause nights like these i wish i'd said don't go.
is there anybody there?
can anybody help to get me out of here?
cause you're walking down a road that i can't go.

WARNING: the below content contains explicit act of disgust.
if you have a bad stomach, please close this window immediately.
otherwise, read on....


this is the life of the gamer in senget revealed.
you will only get this story live here and nowhere else!


25th march, 11.45pm.
back from basketball and started WoW all the way till....


26th march, 2am.
paused WoW just to bathe.


5am
stopped WoW-ing and went to bed.


9am.
automatically woke up and first thing to do was to on laptop.
WoW-ing starts thereafter.


12.30pm.
took a small break and finally went to wash up.
yes, that means wash my face and brush my teeth.


12.40pm.
WoW-ing continues...


4pm.
hungry like fuck.
stopped for awhile, ransack the fridge.
ate some tibits and biscuits.


4.20pm.
WoW-ing resumes....


7.40pm.
WoW-ing finally stops and off to dinner with family.
i was about to bathe but was late, so i rushed down.
after dinner, join keong, weitong and suet as they had their dinner.
stop at ocha and back home for awhile before soccer starts at 10pm.


27th march 1.20am.
soccer ended and it was home sweet home.
finally, my FIRST BATH for the day!
HURRAY!
(now everyone must be thinking how dirty i am)
ROFL.


1.50am.
blog entry ended.
time to WoW.
=)


so there you go.
this is the typical gamer in me.
it could have been more hardcore if i didn't went out for dinner and soccer.
i guess my WoW addiction is back yet again.

HAPPY 24th BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR BROTHER, SIEW XIN CHEE.
his birthday was yesterday, 23rd, and we were out celebrating at a restaurant, "amirah's grill" somewhere near arab street with his classmates from SIM's university of buffalo.
first time meeting most of their classmates and i must say they are all really friendly people.
well, we had decent food, sheesha and most of all, lots of laughter.
my bro even kept emphasizing my name as SIEW XIN YI! LIKE WTH!
and everyone was telling how ALIKE my bro and i looked.
totally carbon copy, like twins, at least thats what most said.
seriously, i myself can't tell. lol.
anyway, 12am, the restaurant closes and we're off.
all to different vehicles and directions.
i was back to central park where i had a short while of soccer before heading home at 2am.





extending back my ear holes isn't as easy as i initially thought it would be.
maybe it's been awhile since i felt pain on it.
cause i've finally managed to squeeze the larger straw into both holes but they're swelling now!
i know most of you are gonna call me dumb or something to put myself through all these.
but what the hell.
so now both the holes are bleeding with pus and it kinda hurts.
hopefully it recovers soon so i can wear my old studs back.
or maybe i could extend them to my bubble tea straw again.
hmm....


you marked your name.
but i can see, it's not on me.
so i've shamelessly gone and made myself come undone.
heavy hangs my head when i'm unhearted.

KNOCK OUT!!
thats the first thing i did soon after i came home from my NAFA admission test.
despite waking up on time and planning/estimating my time needed.
i was still late for the 9.30am test.
i actually took bus 23 from tp but was stuck in a traffic jam (just my luck).
so in the end i had no choice but to alight early and rush there by cab.
with no cash on me, i had to use nets and it fucking cost me $8!
i'm now at the poorest peak of my life. rofl.
worse of all, i reach there only to find out that the test will start at 10am.
bloody hell waste my cab fare!


about the test, i have more confidence in paper 1 than paper 2, just like i mentioned before.
for paper 1, we had 1 hour to draw any 3 objects grouped or stacked together.
so after thinking a while, i decided to draw this.



for the 2 hour long paper 2, out of the 3 theme: joy, sadness and punctured, we were given, i picked joy since i thought it was the easiest among them.
so i cracked my brains and was literally running out of ideas on how to do it.
i think other people did better than me for this.
therefore, i think i suck.
this is the end result.




i hope for the best.
the result will be mailed to us by post in less than a month's time.


last night, staying up till 6am with the risk of oversleeping for my admission test was worth it.
especially cheering for man utd who won the champion leagues final!!!
MUAHAHAHAHAHA.
GO RED DEVILS!!!