Symptoms of A Failing Heart

i've been so busy and lazy to update my blog. and now that most of my buddies poly holidays are over. its just left me, weitong, keong, khia seng and ben. while they are either busy working or out with their girlfriends. i'm starting to feel the whole lonely shit again. haa, left with only my xbox to keep me company by the day. i need some plans, i need to go out! we really need to plan some activities or outing, especially weekends when everyone is free. or i'm gonna die of boredom at home.

anyway, today woke up at 2pm and made myself some breakfast. then met up with rowdians and kukus at ocha to go tp for soccer as most of their classes ends early. from now onwards, every monday would be soccer at tp, i hope. we play till around 8 and then head towards 820 for alil' western dinner. i left for home first as i plan to go vcd shop and game shop to check out some new stuffs but that all go in vain. then reach home and ate my dinner again. these few days, i've been playing my xbox's dynasty warrior 4 almost every hour. mostly play til like 5am in the morning before i sleep. but i'm getting sick of it already as i've completed most of the stuffs in it. really need to get myself some new games or find something else to do. this is gonna be one of the worse holidays ever. now i'm already feeling bored. what to do?

well, was out on the afternoon with wenyan and weitong for their lunch at 827. i've already had mine of macdonalds again back at home. after lunch, wenyan headed to her auntie's house while weitong heads home. so i've got no choice but to go home too. then went century square to meet up with my mom. we watched "star wars episode 3" this evening. it was still a pretty awesome show even though i've already seen or heard most of it from games, trailers and stuffs. a MUST watch for anyone who watched even just 1 of its episodes. 8/10 ratings. after the show, had dinner at the food court below which sure is fucking expensive. then, proceed to tm for a lil' shopping before they close. got myself some famous amos and more snacks at ntuc fairprice. thats about for today, just finish watching dvd "assault on precint 13". soon i'll be going to bed. a long day for me tomorrow i hope.

now that my exams are over. i'm feel so glad but at the same time, sorrow. because it marks the new beginning of something else. we're going 2nd year next semester and many of us are already split into different speciality and classes. my multimedia class, it2p consist of only yusman, ghaz and shait. the rest which i had no idea who the fuck they are. so sad for one of my best friend, joshua whose going a class next to us. aww.... damn, time sure flies like hell when i don't want it to be. now i'm gonna miss my it1c so much! evenmore, my class and networking's it2t are going for attachment straight away when school reopens. so i won't be seeing school or some of my friends until mid-august. hai.

anyway, heres some recap of past few days.

saturday, had lunch with weitong and wenyan as usual at 827. this time after lunch, i left first as i was "supposed" to go jamming with some bandmates which i've never seen before at wee lee. called them at first but the phone was off, so i thought they won't fool me and i really did went to the jamming studio to wait for them. i did got fooled after all, i kept calling but the same old shit of the phone off. fuck it, i just head back to tampines after 20 mins of waiting. met up with keong, felki and her mother at century square. plan to get some naruto stuff but in the end, had to purchase the full set. somemore, it was considered quite late to go somewhere else to find and get the naruto stuffs. then, left for changi to go selarang camp for felki's mom to give mc and some documents to the officers there. well, we got lost at first but managed to find the place only after around 20 mins of walking. haha. took a bus back to tampines interchange and got ourselves macdonald for dinner. went back to 827 to buy food again and then left for felki's house and then keong's house. i was at his house watching the fa cup match between arsenal against man united. his WHOLE family was there and most of us stay in his room to watch. his dog, jojo sure is funny. after more than 2 hours of excitment, cursing and shouting. man united finally lost during the penalty shoot off. keong heads for felki's house again and i walked home together with them. well, thats all for that day. got home to my home sweet bed.

on friday, marks the last paper of my exams. such a relief but also, i'm so afraid of getting bad results for them all. i don't have much confidence in all the papers but at least i know i'm going to pass them all for sure. just hope i did better than i expected. just can't wait till the results come out. at around 4, hock and albert came to my house to upload something and also to play my xbox. just when they left, i cycled to somewhere near ubi with ghaz to play soccer. it sure is a fucking long journey which i'll never go back there again. i thought it was just around bedok researvoir cause thats what they told me at first. somemore, the soccer court was also shitty as there were deep, big drains near it and slopes everywhere. so hard to pick the ball back up if it got fly over the wall. left soon after to go home change and caught the movie "amityville horror" with keong, hock, weitong, felki and wenyan. totally a freaking scary and shocking movie of all time. if you're looking for some adrenaline pump and excitment, thats the show you gotta watch. at least a 8.5/10 rating. after the show, actually wanted to slack at al-kader but most were too tired so we all went home to sleep instead.

i thought you'd come back, at least i prayed.
the romance has been dead for years.
but i've been too afraid to dig the past.
relief support, never came.
memories carry me through the days.
of when we were young,
and angels came to watch us play.
close my eyes, just for tonight.
a movie that plays in my mind.
being with you helps me survive.
everyday a re-run of the next.
i promised to stay by your side.
that all had changed, i can't complain.
another victim of the game.
maybe love will find us again,
for there, is always tomorrow.
sincerely till the end.

well, i've got high hopes for my cmaths paper today. even though i studied it for just a mere 1 hour, i have full confidence that i will get at least 90 marks and above. i feel the paper is really easy. i hope i'm right. after the paper, got home to change and then off to wenyan's house to watch naurto. met up with keong and felki before that to get ourselves some snacks at cold storage. all the way at wenyan's house, our eyes were like glued to the computer screen watching naruto for hours. we were "supposed" to be studying for our exams but turns out different. cause my next exam is on wed, so i actually didn't plan on studying already. anyway, weitong left for awhile to go studying at his friend's house at bedok but he came back after that. when he came back, we all headed to 826 for our dinner. then proceed to ocha for a drink and talk some shit overthere. i finally came home at around 10. found my toilet has finally been repaired finish. look and feel totally different from the past, which i don't really like it. the color is even pink! guess i just have to get used to it.

alright. i'm finally back from rowdee's chalet. we sure had some real good times at the chalet. lots of fun and laughter but also not forgetting some bad times.

on the first day, most of us met up at wenyan's house to take the marinated food before making our way to costa sand pasir ris by cab. check in for awhile before we left again to go white sand to buy more food. at the evening, finally started our bbq and with more rowdians and guests joining us. around night time, started our games which most of them planned. its really competitive and fun. we were spread into 2 teams and the loser team would have to eat raw eggs. muahaha. theres a total of 3 games. the first one was to step at your opponent's balloon which is tied to their legs and they do the same to u, ended up my team lost. second one was a "number guessing" game which my team finally won. the last game, was just a simple "scissor paper stone" which needless to say, my team won again. wahaha. at the end of the game, get to splash water bomb at each other. the loser team really did get to eat up raw egg each which i myself also volunteered to eat one. taste totally gross!

on the second day, things were almost the same as the previous night. activities were swimming, taking pictures and stuffs. bbq as usual and this time, there were more people joining us. also play some silly and funny games which my brather came up with. totally hilarious. halfway through, went to downtown east to melvin's chalet but when i reached there, theres only 3 people left. the rest was out playing lan games somewhere else. so within few minutes there, i went back to my chalet again. after hours of bbqing and eating, due to the overwhelming numbers, some of us, weitong, keong, wenyuan, peggie, tiannee and felki went to other place to rest. waited at the lobby for tiannee's dad to fetch her. it was rainning really heavily but after sometime resting and filming at the lobby, we decide to go downtown east to slack, drink and eat. my brather met up with us over there as he was at his other friend's chalet. after buying some stuffs at cheers, we all went back. as soon as we got back, the first thing i did was to sleep!! i was upstairs cause downstairs were really noisy and chaotic due to the drinking and stuffs.

the next morning, realised that some of them, jason, james and kuku were drunk and made a real mess out of the chalet. lots of stories behind it but its too much for me to mention. after preparing and cleaning up, we finally checked out and made our way home. i took a cab back with tet tet and alex. home sweet home.

drop dead and slept till around 5+, where i met up with weitong and wenyan for our hair cut as exams is just around the corner. mine is like tomorrow!! after the cut, went to wenyan's house to slack but i left soon after as i was told to have dinner with my family at the 800+ foodcourt. before heading home, went to meet ayoub to get some maths test answers but in the end, it became a wasted trip cause he don't have it at all!! dammit. so here i am, back home and ready to study for tomorrow's cmaths paper. may smartness be upon me...

missed school again this time to go to the gym myself instead. only in the evening, met up with weitong, keong, wenyan and felki to go ocha for a drink. weitong left for work and the rest of us went to buy our chalet's food. after we shop finish, procced to wenyan's house to marinate the chicken. after finish marinating, wenyan stay home and the 3 of us left for dinner at foodcourt before making our way home. copied some notes at home to prepare myself for OS's test tomorrow. all the best to me.

just got back from some walking around at tm and cs with keong and felki. before that, we were at changi airport, "supposely" to take our cafe uniform. but ended up due to our exams next week, we have to wait for awhile longer to take it and start our training. anyway, i'm like half wanting to work only cause the holidays are just around the corner. dammit. its a difficult decision, if not for the cash. school was pretty stressful today. didn't really get to finish all my projects, evenmore, the deadline is today!! hand in most of it half done only. i just feel so useless of myself as i'm too much of a perfectionist to not complete my projects. arggh. think my grades gonna drop real bad.

ok. yesterday, was having breakfast with my brather at cc mac as he called me down cause he was on the way back from the hospital. he was taking mc, big liar. hahaha. anyway, i was already late for school but my empty stomach refuse to say no. bum onto qingan and dick at mac cause both of them couldn't sleep and decide to have breakfast. after school, went back home to change and went tm to eat din tai fung with my family. after that, caught the move "kingdom of heaven" AGAIN!! its the 3rd time i watched it. i've never watch a movie so many times in such a short time, its not even one of my top rated films. haa.

monday, skipped school to go gym and swimming at bedok myself. in the evening, proceed to pasar malam help keong and wenyan buy snacks as i was going wenyan's house. slack for awhile before the girls came as we have already decide to watch the movie "house of wax" later on. after much deciding, wenyan finally joined us over there at cs. the movie was quite gruesome, didn't expect some of the scenes to be so rather violent. wasn't a bad movie after all, except that someone keep throwing popcorn at me halfway through. ok its a 7/10 rating. had dinner at long john silvers after that. sent the girls back before keong came my house to wait for awhile as i was taking my bicycle and ball. we head to central park to play soccer with the rowdians as usual. finally got home and slept at 1am.

thursday:
catch the movie "kingdom of heaven" with afiq, khairi, ayoub and farhan. it was really a nice show, better than i expected. but the 2hr 25mins sitting on the gv's seat is really pain in the ass. after the show, had dinner at bk before we all made our way home.

friday:
had a match against some year 2 students. this time, only me, haikal, iklash, afiq and deepan play, plus with the help of some of their friends. end up we lost 7-4. wasn't that bad, i'm sure we all did our best. the worse thing is that, i was wearing whole white and i didn't realised that it was rainning before that. i didn't even bought any extra clothings, luckily i never got myself so dirty. after the match, went home to change and met up with keong, mond, hockang, ben, weitong, wenyan and felki. dick joined us later. we got ourself dinner at cs's food court and walked around mindlessly before catching the movie "kingdom of heaven" AGAIN. 2 days straight, but i don't mind. it was a good show to watch a second time. after that, walked to central park maze to slack awhile before we all went home.

saturday:
went to the black box gig at planet paragilm with haikal. met up gwen and some others over there. the gig was really awesome with great bands performing. most of them sure kickass!! moshing was like very fierce, i really don't like to get involve. haha. finally, after almost 8 hours of NO FOOD and only music. we went plaza singapura to eat long john. then make our way back to tampines' bk to met up with ghaz and ayoub for awhile. then all of us took a bus home. on the way back, got a call from keong and so, i met up with him, felki and wenyan at 800+ to talk cock. stay there for quite sometime before sending wenyan home and then we proceed back home too.

today:
the once in a year mother's day. and i didn't even bought her anything this time. not like last 2 years which i bought cake. nevermind, there's still next year. went to ate with my family at lau pa sa. a real delicious meal which consist of most of my favourite dishes. after the meal, went back to met up with qingan, khiaseng, hockang and wenyan. after some deciding, they came to my house to watch soccer match. weitong, ben and dick joined us later. but now, they've all went to ben house instead to play mahjong. so now, i'm left alone here, going to do my iwad project pretty soon i hope. cause the shitty program is not responding. fucking hell. somebody save me from this project tragedy.

most probably skipping school tomorrow. my project mates all so gonna kill me! hee

I'll speak in riddles so you can understand
I'll draw in pencil so you can trace with pen
So in love with me like sand to wet feet
I'll write both our names into the wet concrete

just got back from ocha with weitong, keong, wenyan and felki. my bro came to find us for a lil' while then before he left to somewhere else. argh i still got a freaking cmaths test tomorrow!! hope i can pass so at least i won't disappoint my teacher. anyway, today school finish rather early. but i actually torn my converse shoe while playing soccer in s&w lesson. damn it!! i was just hoping to wear that for at least a year, now i got to get myself a new pair. i was walking home from school half bare-footed, and everyone i walked past just can't stop looking at me. hahaha. met keong on the way and we stopped at ocha first before making our way home. stay home and do some shitty drawing of stuffs with felki on msn was all i did. it was really funny, keong should really see those. i am so artistic. =p went down not long after to help my dad bet soccer and dinner with the family. ok i swear i need to buy a new game tomorrow. i really need. still waiting for "GTA: San Andreas" and "Gaunlet" to be released. just can't wait till i get my hands on those games. otherwise i'll be dead bored at home. oh yeah, plan to watch "kingdom of heaven" tomorrow with my classmates. hope its on.

i've been waking up late nowadays, due to either soccer or playing games till late at night. my mum has already started to nag at me as exams is coming and i really should study. this long weekend is very much over soon. its like so fast, i can still feel friday's memory close and clear. anyway, here's some recap of what i did.

friday:
a test in school and i pretty much don't know how to do. there's a retest and this time, i hope i pass. after school, went home with keong and friends. they stopped at 829 for lunch while i stood by and watch them eat. stay home to play my game and went back to school again at 5pm for a match of my class against odact. before leaving school, went tp to help albert pay some kind of fees. that guy sure is troublesome!! if not for his chicken pox, i would have reject him. ok in the end, the match only 4 of my classmates turned up, including me. but with the help of haikal and deepan's friend, we tied the match with 0-0. actually we only did play 1 half cause there was 2 other matches going on before us. we waited 3 half for it to be over before it was our turn, by that time, it was already 7pm and darkness approaching. after match, went home for awhile to change before heading pasar malam and slacking with wenyan, maychan, qingan, keong and felki. after some time, qingan and maychan left and the rest of us proceed to park for soccer. after a rather fast match, got home with keong and felki, and i tompang them home. when both their weight combined, they are HEAVY!! haha. keong, i know you're reading this. muahaha.

saturday:
after i woke up at 2.30pm, went to met weitong and wenyan for lunch at 827 before going wenyan's house for vcd as usual. watched some cool cheena show and after much deciding and waiting for hours, went to pasir ris downtown east for wenyan's friend, tracy chalet. took a cab and met up with qingan, paul, mond and dick over there. had BK for dinner and after a short time there, the rest head to chinmeng's house to watch soccer match while i stay home and play my game, "predator: concrete jungle". the rest actually went to play soccer but i was too glued to my xbox and so i stay home. finally completed the game. wahaha.

sunday:
woke up to find myself so bored that i went to purchase another new game, "death to rights II". also went downstairs to take my lunch from my mum who bought orange julius and old chang kee for me. just nice when i was starting to get bored from the game. got a call from weitong to go wenyan's house as she just got back from malaysia with some new vcds. met up with weitong and mond at 844 after awhile to buy some stuffs to wenyan's house. watched some cheena movie again and then stay behind to babysit wenyan's cousin while the rest of their family went for dinner. after they got back, we soon head for chinmeng's house for yet another soccer watching. after that, went to al-kader for supper with weitong and wenyan. at around 2.30am, the 3 of us then went home. oh ya, a happy birthday to wenyan's mom!! and thanks for the delicious chocolate cake.

today:
woke up at 2pm. realised that my bro just came back from malaysia but he left for sentosa early morning. the best thing is, he bought home dunkin donuts!!! muahahahahaha. had 2 delicious donuts, wanted to eat more but my mom was already making lunch and so i forbid myself from eating more. diet. after lunch, went to wenyan's house to continue our vcd watching. watched "xxx2" and half of "guess who". then left for dinner at 823 with addition of qingan and sharon. i headed home after dinner cause i was planning to eat the other donuts. hahaha. ate another 3 before leaving for soccer again. anyway, i've just got back. we play for only less than an hour but the police came and ended it. now, going to bath soon and sleep. another early day of school tomorrow!!! arggh, i was just starting to enjoy my weekends. hope the pasar malam is not over yet cause i have yet to decide whether to buy the fake jerseys anot.

alright, thats all for now. i'm starting to hate to update this shit. there's just so much for me to talk about. hmm, ok. fuck yeah and bye bye. now stop reading already u assholes.