Symptoms of A Failing Heart

this is how amazing time is.
a week ago, i was still complaining about how long its gonna take before i could book out, now i'm already out. and as swift as it can be, today is yet another book in day for me.


the feeling of booking in really sucks, i haven't even tasted my true freedom. i just want to enjoy myself as much as i can. i serious can't wait to POP, which by that time, my life could be much better than now, i hope.


saturday morning was my book out day together with 12 of my platoon mates. the other 27 of them got to book out on friday mid-night because they got silver/gold for their IPPT test that day. honestly, i was devastated that i couldn't pass my IPPT thanks to my chin-up. fuck it. whats worse is that i get to see the 27 of them book out which really makes me wonder, why can't i be one of them? that feeling simply sucks and it hit me hard. weitong got a silver as well so i had to go back home alone that day.


staying an 'extra' day in camp isn't easy.i was kinda about to cry knowing i couldn't book out early. but slowly, while i was in camp with the 12 of them, i find that it isn't actually that bad. it was a relax one. i got to drink soft drinks the night before and the training on saturday itself wasn't tough at all. we had more laughter instead of sweat. from now on, i'll be training hard on my chin-up. i can do it!


p.s. i love the feeling of being alone though. listening to my loud mp3, looking around at people's faces and seeing how they live their own unique life. maybe loneliness is just what i want. well, i must say, all my friends around me is a real bliss. i thank and love them all.


anyway, saturday was a meaningful one. i get to eat sakura at tampines safra together with tong, james, jason (he left earlier), mond, khiaseng, terter, wenyan, charis, peggie, tiannee and adeline (she came at the end). we had a great meal but it was a short one. i swear i could still eat more. haha. after that was gaming of counterstrike for awhile, we were actually supposed to play either archery or bowling but most ran out of cash and time. halfway playing cs, i sent adeline home first. next up, it was back home to change before having soccer at central park. i didn't play too long cause my right thigh was aching so i got home earlier than expected.


and today, was woke up rather early by my bro because he wanted me to help play his WoW. then lunch at soup restaurant with my whole family before we shopped a lil' while. then i went to meet keong, tong, wenyan, suetjing and felki as we'll be going felki's house to cut our botak yet long hair.


i just came back from meeting them. so about an hour and so more, i'll be meeting weitong to take a cab back camp. hai... another 5 more days to book out day now. i just can't wait.


i'll see you guys soon.
take care for now.

HOHO mother fuckers!!!
guess whose back?
wahahaha.
FINALLY, my 2 weeks of confinement has past.
but fucking shit, after i book out on friday night, now is already sunday (12am past).
WHAT THE FUCK!?!?!
god damn it, time sure flies fast when im just about to enjoy myself.
i want my life back!


anyway, my army life is all good but real tough. because we had to sleep at around 10pm and wake up at 5am everyday. there's always tireness among us all because 7 hours of sleep is simply insufficient. i'm also starting to get sick of the food there as we have rice and chicken meat like everyday. not that i hate it but eating it everyday can sooner or later make me sick of it. we're not even allow to drink soft-drinks and not able to buy newspaper. i don't even know what the fuck is happening around the world. how pathetic.


thank god, because my platoon, platoon 12, has all the friendly and welfare sergeants.
my platoon, platoon 12, is the biggest among the whole battlion, has 4 sections and i'm in section 1. all of us in section 1 can really click well and i like them all, which is good. at least life during my BMT period would be good. we all bond well together, well except afew of course. i'm even lucky to have weitong sleep beside me (the not gay way).


and seriously, during my 2 weeks confinements, i really miss my old life. my family, my friends, my WoW, my bed and my toilet. hahaha. how i wish this 2 years can end fast.


sad to say, my chin-up/pull-up is fuck up now. we have to do it before every meal and i only manage to pull once everytime. its like what the fuck, i didn't know i suck that bad. i really need to improve alot on that so that i can get a pass or silver for my IPPT which can results in a earlier book out. for the other stations, i guess i should have no problem with them.


no pain, no gain.
i shall get a silver by the time i make another new post.


now, about the day i book out on friday night around 6pm. we had a swimming lesson at jurong camp earlier on before the bus took us to jurong point. all of us were like so glad and excited. it seens like a long time ago when i last saw civilsation and GIRLS! wahahha.


first thing first, weitong, ji bao and me had macdonald meal over there. our very first taste of fast-food and softdrinks since 2 weeks ago. then we went to take the mrt where we were suppose to meet them together with keong, felki, khiaseng and charis (keong and khiaseng is currently serving at police academy and our first book out were at the same time) but due to some miscommunication, we only get to see each other back at tampines while khiaseng and charis left first at bedok.


wenyan and tiannee were already at the control station awaiting for our arrival. keong and felki left first while the rest of us had kfc dinner together with albert, mond, paul, james, hock, adeline and peggie. after that, i went back home to change and see my mom first before sending adeline home. then back to central park to find them as we'll be having midnight movie of "pirates of the caribbean: dead man's chest". terter, alex (new gay recruit) and amy joined us for the show.


not a bad show but some of us, the new recruits, was so tired and sleepy that i felt alseep during some of the scenes. haha. overall though, i think part 1 is still better. only this time round, it's has much more humor. after movie, supper at mac for the rest with suetjing, sharon, kuku and other kukus joinning us. home sweet home soon after.


today, was out to beach road with keong, weitong, khiaseng, hock, albert, ben and suetjing for some army stuffs purchasing. bumped onto our section mates as well and we managed to completely buy the list of items we were told to buy. we had lunch over there before we took a train back simei for some pool while keong headed home first. cabbed back to tampines mall with albert, hock and suetjing as the rest had to go home change because they will be going pub later which we won't be joinning. reason: no money and tired and etc.


we walked around the mall and end up reading magazine at times bookshop. bought starbucks coffee back for keong and felki who was at near 827 as felki's grandma just passed away today. my deepest condolence. went home to put my stuffs first and got my kfc dinner from my mama before going down to find them. spent time at the wake and then under charis' block for slacking. back home in no time as we're all dead tired.


so here i am. in conclusion, it's great booking out to see all my family and friends. i missed you guys so much. it just makes me feel sad to be serving my nation instead of having fun, it's like some part of me is missing. well, it part and parcel of life and i will accept it someday.


tomorrow i'm going to spend more time with my family and friends again before i had to book in by 8.30pm. i hate my army life. argh. my mind is so messed up now that i can't totally revised this post and i can't write down all my thoughts running through in my head.


i'm confused. i'm sad. i'm pathetic.
i need a better life.

in few more hours time, my hair is gonna be bald.
my life is going to have a compete change.
adapting to new lifestyle and habit.
go figure out what i'm talking about.


i'll be back in 2 weeks time.
take care and good luck to everyone.
see you soon.