Symptoms of A Failing Heart

"Like The Angel" by Rise Against

they turn the lights down low,
in shadows hiding from the world,
only coming out when it gets cold

the seas part when they hit the floor,
the voices carry on and out the door
and everything you touch turns into gold

like the angel you are you laugh creating a lightness in my chest,
your eyes they penetrate me,
(your answer's always 'maybe')
that's when I got up and left

a beating heart and a microphone,
a ticking clock in an empty home
still tells of these times so long ago,
and even though I've come so far, I know
I've got so far to go and any day now I'll explode

like the angel you are you laugh creating a lightness in my chest,
your eyes they penetrate me,
(your answer's always 'maybe')
that's when I got up and left

And each and everyday will lead into tomorrow
and tomorrow brings one less day without you
but don't wait up just leave the light on
cause all the roads that I might take will all one day lead back to you

And like the angel you are you laugh creating a lightness in my chest,
your eyes they penetrate me,
(never cease to amaze me)
that's when I got up and left

yesterday night went to 880+ car park to play some lanterns, candles and sparkers because it ws moon cake festival. a really fun night!! i had lotsa fun. i left my house at around 8.40pm and cycle to the carpark to meet the rowdians but as i thought, they were all late, there was no one there when i reach. so i called everyone but no one answered except for mond and so i meet him first as i was just under his block anyway. halfway walking, we saw zhen fai and then the 3 of us went to buy candles, laterns, sparkers and lighter first because these are the items we're gonna play that night. within mintues, tong, yan and yan's bro came. after they went to buy the stuffs they needed, all of us went up to the car park to play first while waiting for the rest to come. to our surprise, david and his gf, jessica came soon after. david then slowly introduced his gf to all of us. around 10 mins later, there came dick and then bahgeh and eric. i was so relief to see bahgeh as he was bringing my 2 BK mushroom swiss burger which i intially told qingan to buy. yum yum!!~ i was so hungry and finished the burgers so fast. after that, i and zhen fai cycled to central park to finding our gf there. i spent around 30 mins there at the park with karen and her friends; tina, junhao and some others. when around 9.30pm, tina and junhao have to leave and so she had to leave with tina to go her house as her bag was still there. so we slowly made our way there. because it was late already, i tonbang her home straight after she took her bag. after sending her, i went back to the car park while passing through central park and thats how i saw albert who wanted a ride home first to change. so i tonbang him home and waited with ah tai for him to come back. then i threesome both albert and ah tai to the carpark to find the rest of the crew. at the carpark, most of them was happily enojoying their game of monkey with the soccer ball and that is so funny especially ben. hahaha. also, people like alex, paul, yuan, jason and chinmeng were already there when i reach. i also start to burn all the candles and stuffs because can't waste them. then, there came melvin, nicholas, ivan and yongchze as they wanted to play soccer with us later too. there was these 2 kids that were playing with the sparkers and stuffs, making a hell lot of noise!! the both of them are like devils playing with fire. the residents around the neighbourhood kept looking and so, we've no choice but to leave because we're sure police will come in no time. we all then made our way to the cp's basketball court to play soccer. i was teamed with xiaogui as they're short of people and was also complaining if i don't join them. haha. haflway playing, engkeong came and was substituting people in no time. i play for around 7 goals before making my way home alone first due to my tireness and sorethroat. anyway, i'm here in school now, lesson is almost ending. muahaha. finally!! gonna go home first to change before going down to the cc mac to meet karen as she will be studying there. oh yeah. time almost up. gotta go home now. WOOHOO!!

i'm here now at my great grandma's house blogging cause i'm now having 2 hours break until 2pm. so bored at school so come here to use the computer and watch vcd. anyway later go back school 2 hours and do nothing cause we're having presentation and its not my turn yet till next week. maybe i'll just sleep in class. until now i still have no fucking idea of what to present. maybe i could present about drums but what can props can i use man? can't expect me to bring a drumset to school. or if i just bring drum sticks what can i do with it man. damn, this kills my brain cells. anyway, before i came here, just now in school was supposed to have a phase test for CMAIN starting at 10.20am. but the class was large so have to split up into 2 groups. first group consist of register 1-16 was to do the test first while the second group of 17-35 will have an hour break and come back later. it was so boring!! i went to the staff toilet to berak first cause cannot tahan already. hahahaha!! then head my way to the library to find my friends and read some magazines till we went back the class at around 11.20am. as i predicted, the previous group couldn't finish on time due to some technical problems so my group was postponed to friday. yeah!! muahah!! therefore we were released immediately. now its time for me to go watch my vcd, "Brotherhood" already otherwise waste my money for renting it. still thinking whether should go back school later anot. hmmm....

i don't want to go school tml. i hate school. hope can go home early tml.

damn today woke up and realised i still have my fucking sore throat!!! it really irritates me alot, theres still alot of phlegms trap inside. think it must be because i didn't eat the medicines on schedule for the past 2 days. shibby~ i just hope it gets better tml cause it really is killing me. arrggg!!!! anyway, today is another boring sunday as i've stayed at home all the way except going downstairs to buy food for me and my brather. i even bought roti prata again and this really 'helps' my sore throat. i just can't control myself from all these heaty and oily food. i need a healthy food plan!!! anyway, today actually was going to cycle to Changi Village to eat subway with ma bunch of rowdians but due to my little sickness, the about-to-rain-weather and my shitty-and-could-die-anytime bike. i didn't go for it. the only thing to keep me company was 'Knight Online' which i already starts to feel bored playing it. man, i need a new game!!! or i'll bored to death. i just can't wait for 'Call of Duty Expansion' and 'Half life 2' to be released. now i'm gonna go train my fat tummy. hope the fats goes away quick cause people might think i have a beer belly. haha.

yesterday midnight went to watch "New Police Story". it was a rather nice show i should say. evenmore, it was one of the rare chinese show i would watch. hahaha. can say it is one of the best chinese show i watched so far this year. therefore, i'm gonna give a 4/5 rating for it. anyway, i can't wait for next week's midnight show cause we'll be watching "Resident Evil: Apocalypse"!!!! damn i'm sure gonna book it 2 days in advance for the best seats.

now its time for me to go prepare, cause later going cm house to watch vcd, "Brotherhood" and see Manu's soocer match. then later go down to play soccer at around midnight. hope i can keep myself awake later on cause i'm really very tired now. zzzzZZZ

i feel so much better today!! all the phlegms with blood that had been stuck inside my throat for such a long time has finally come out. i think too much screaming hurts my throat. anyway, guess i'm gonna be fine in a couple of days. after i wake up at 11+, went to eat a bowl of cornflakes and then ate my medicince. at around 3, went downstairs to return the vcd "Undead" (a shitty lame show) and also to find karen at the bubble tea shop. then she accompany me while i had my lunch. after that, she insisted on sending me home as i was still sick. it should be the other way round but no choice, i simple can't outspeak her. since then, i've been staying at home all along except at around evening time, had to cycle to TP to give my brather his stuffs for rock climbing. went to the vcd shop again but no nice shows to rent. so came back home and rot. all i did was like tv then computer then tv then computer, thats all. so fucking boring but it really did spent my time until now and i just finish eating my dinner and medicine. thinking i still got school tommorrow. arggg!!! GOD DAMNIT!!! I HATE SCHOOL!!! COME HOLIDAY COME!!!

today at first wake up already but feel like so weak and sick then went back to sleep, so i skipped 2 hours of CCOM in the morning. after i woke up later, i went to the toilet and all the phlegms that i coughed out are all covered with blood. fucking scary, i thought i was dying or something. anyway, i still make my way to school late. was like so tired during all the lesson. luckily i managed to survive till the end of the lessons. also got back my maths test paper, got 77/100. muahaha!!! to hell with assignment 4 already, no need to do then cause i got A1. hahahaha. anyway, when i just left the school's gate, it suddenly starts to rain heavily. so no choice i walked to my grandma house which is around the area to lend umbrella. then made my way to jyss to fetch karen but still got time, so i went home to change. after walking her home halfway, the rain starts to pour heavily again. was caught in the rain with her for awhile due to no shelter. both of us were drenched. then slowly walked up to her house as my slipper is a very dangerous weapon. because it was still rainning heavily, i have no choice stayed at her house for awhile till the rain stops. and just nice, my sickness like suddenly appear again. so in the end i felt asleep on her couch for about an hour. when its time for me to leave, i almost couldn't get up. i really need to see a doctor soon. karen actually wanted to bring me to the doctor but i don't want to trouble her and also, i didn't have enough cash with me so i have to wait till my mom got home. so i forced myself up as she needs to rest too. then, i borrowed an umbrella and slowly walked to the 293 bus stop to take a bus. after stopping on 1 of the bus stop, the bus almost ran over 1 malay girl passenger who just alighted. it was so fuck up!! i thought the girl was dead. i won't want to see people die infront of me again. anyway, it was all the girl's fault as she wanted to cross the road but was standing infront of the bus. the bus driver was looking out for the cars behind as it was still rainning, therefore, he didn't get to see her. luckily the bus driver braked fast enough. in split seconds, i could see the girl standing up. *phew* she was all wet and was like holding her tummy (maybe it was hurt or something). "where got people cross the road infront of the bus one, they should go behind mah", thats wat most of the passengers inside was saying. evenmore, the bus driver was more like scolding the girl instead of helping her. the girl was just like "shutup lah, shutup lah" (thats wat i think, cause i can't hear properly and she has this angry/sad face on her). ok back to my sickness. after i got home, i just quickly lied down on my bed to sleep as i was feeling rather tired. i was like so cold eventhough i had cover myself with blankets and stuffs. the windows was closed and everything was off except for a fan which is like useless anyway and i was still feeling cold. its been a long time since i felt that way. when i woke up, i still feel the same way. i just couldn't get myself up or even exposing any part of my body out of the blanket (except my head of course). i also couldn't make myself back to sleep and kept tossing and turning around. after sometime, i finally managed to get myself up to take the thermometer to check my temperature. it was 37.9! then slowly, i walked to the living room like a zombie to try to watch some tv as i just can't stay at my bed any longer. the more i stay there, the more terrible i gets. finally my mom called me to meet her at the clinic. right before i left, i checked the temperature again and it was 38.2! wat the fuck man, its the worse temperature i ever got. after seeing the doctor, he just told me it was a typical cough and fever so not to worry. to my surprise, the medication bill was cheap, just 28 bucks. but the doctor sure gave me lotsa medicine to eat. i have to eat like 20 pills per day!!! damn. right now, after eating the food and medicines, I FEEL SO ALIVE!! alot better already, thats why i can use the computer. can't imagine i was so ill just now. oh ya, the doctor also gave me a MC. hahaha. to hell with school tommorrow. woohoo!!!

yesterday watched "Dodge Ball" with rowdees at midnight. a totally hilarious show!!! it really did make me laugh the shit out of me man. u sure can laugh all the way throughout the show. i'd give a 5/5 rating for it. a MUST SEE MOVIE!! wish i could have the chance to play dodge ball sometimes. hahaha. anyway remember the 5 D's, Dodge, Dip, Duck, Dive and Dodge. this month sure has some pretty nice movie like "The Great Challenge" and most of all "Resident Evil: Apocalypse"!!! just can't wait to catch it.

peggie-karen 

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14 years friend 

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FINALLy the chalet has come. i've been like waiting for so fucking long for it. cause the chalet also marks my long-waited september holiday. MUAHAHA. 1 week of holiday, free man! SWEET!!~ anyway, the chalet is so happening, with lotsa funny and serious stuffs goin on. an unforgettable day for all of us, esp. about the drunk stuffs and the time i spent with karen. hahaha. but one sad thing is that i'm broke because of the chalet and i missed the VMA [hope that an encore soon]. damn~ anway, just can't wait for all the photos to be ready and developed cause we really took a hell load of pictures. sadly, the chalet only lasted for a day. most of us only slept for 2 hours due to some situation and the lack of space. whats worse is that we have a soccer match coming the next day so all of us has to wake up by 7 plus to wash-up and get ready. after we rush to the field by cab, we even had to wait for like 1 hr plus for our turn to play the match because of the fucking ref. he didn't even know how to do his job and still dare to runaway somemore. so most of us just slept through the time. most probably, we predict we would have lost the match because of our tireness and also, the team are said to be "STRONG". but to our surprise, we won 4-3. so fucking rocks! muahaha. i even scored 2 goals but both was disqualified as offside. FUCK IT!! shitty ref. also, 1 open goal and i headed it over. DAMN!! after the match, went home to slept for 4 hrs and i still feel fucking tired. went to 844 to eat with my parents and then off to cm house to watch vcd but in the end didn't, so we just talk and slack there all the while. today woke up so early because my papa called me up to check something for him and just before i could went back to sleep again. the fucking renovation below me started again. the noise is so fucking loud. i totally can't sleep!!! ARGGG!! so here i am, writing this blog to keep me busy for the time being before going out to meet karen later for lunch and then send her home. i'm feeling so hungry already. think i'll go grab something to eat first.

now i'm inside the class. few more minutes till the CMAIN lesson ends. just can't wait to go home!!! also, have to pass by the office to find my lost umbrella which i left in school few days ago. hahaha. lucky it wasn't stolen (wonder who would steal an umbrella) today also has CMAIN test which hope i could get good marks for it cause it affects my GPA real bad. anyway, today's 2 hour break went to my grandma house to slack and play some kid's lego game which tested my brain and IQ, really did kill alot of my brain cells but it was real fun and exciting except for my 3 little cousins who were just so NOISY!! almost didn't went back to school for the 3 hours lesson. thankfully i thought it through and came back. otherwise i wouldn't be here anyway. alright times out, have to go home now. bye

"Anacondas" wasn't much i expected. rather sucky i should say. the graphics of the snakes is just so damn FAKE and UNREAL. think they not using the up-to-date technology to create the snakes man. i think i can even do better than them. haha just kidding. luckily we just paid 5 bucks for it. phew~ otherwise really waste my money. anyway, now i'm at cm house rotting while the rest, as usual, were playing mahjong. so boring!! but i'm leaving soon to accompany karen for dinner. just can't wait to see her. muahaha.

just came back home now after sending karen home from out little outing to the library. haha. but going out soon again to catch the movie "Anacondas" at 11.50pm. hope its gonna be a nice show but even if its not, i don't mind as will be saving quite a few bucks for it. due to the connection of my friend's friend who work at the axs station, we'll only be paying 5 bucks for it. 5 bucks sure is cheap compared to the normal 8.50 bucks. but that guy still haven't confirm the booking number with me and i can't transfer him the money yet. i even called him a long time ago just to ask him to book tickets for us. just hope he don't disappoint me again.