Symptoms of A Failing Heart

HOHO! albert is IN the FINALS!! he's now 1 of the top 10 male finalist in star idol. we were with him yesterday for the results are a theater in mediacorp. it was awesome experience for me cause it's my first time to ever catch a show live and i was on tv again! haha. plus i got to explore the studio and not forgetting all the HOT CONTESTANTS and CHICKS over there. hahaha. it was surely an eye opener for us all.

so hock and me waited for albert after the show ends when tian nee went home first. while he's having a briefing with the other 19 finalist and the manager, the two of us were like spending our time talking crap in the reception area. he finally came out with a contract on his hand which lasts till march 2006. haha. he got such a pack schedule now and i think he can forget about working, schooling and even hanging out with rowdees since he'll be a very busy man with lots of strict rules he need to follow. for example, he can't have any bad publicity from now all which consists of swearing, gambling, fightings, trips to the nightclub and etc. i guess he's really gonna be a changed man from now on, plus with all the sponsors and privilledge entitled to him. and also, the soon-to-form fan club which would be so crazy over him. damn he's lucky. lol.

YOU BETTER DON'T FORGET ABOUT US when you're famous dude!

to celebrate for his achievement, he paid for the cab fare back and a dinner treat for hock and me at 829. i'll be expecting more treats from his when he slowly climb up to the top and finally become the first star idol if possible.

well guys, when star idol start showing around november, please don't forget to vote for albert see chun han through sms. this dude need all the votes he could get and i guaratee you, he can really act! trust me, you really have to see to believe.

here you go: the top 10 male and female finalist of the first ever star idol. i know its blur, cause they were too far away from me and i'm already taking a risk of being scolded as outside cameras are STRICTLY not allowed. therefore, this is the best you could get.

i actually took this photo cause i was testing my handphone's flash which comes and go. i should really bring my phone to nokia care some time soon, or maybe i should just steal and switch hock's phone with mine. muahaha. anyway, hock is busy sending odds at that time cause he's now an agent already.

i know you guys have been dying to catch a glimplse between my legs. HAHAHAHA.

this is how bored yusman looks when he's attending maths lessons. i doubt he's even paying attention. his book is always there just to pretend he's learning something. haha.

this is how boring the class could really get. I HATE MATHS! but i'm good at it. hoho.

OCHA PARADISE: the favourite hangout of rowdees, where our thrist is never a problem.

every bubble tea at ocha cost a mere $1. and ain't the cup design just look so attractive? how can you resist it? hahaha.

our future star idol, albert, caught swearing! i could actually earn some quick cash by selling this photo to his fans someday. i'm such a genius!

paul simple loves to suck ****. oh no, i mean ice-cream. he just love ice-cream so much that he some times treat it like a ****. huehuehue.

WARNING: "DISTURBING CONTENT" PLEASE VIEW THIS PHOTO AT YOUR OWN RISK. ANY SIDE EFFECTS or VIRUSES IS NOT TO BE BLAMED ON THE OWNER.

don't ben just look so COOL?!?

this is how i look when i sleep, and i simply love my ultraman blanket. hahaha.

i was about to post a new entry but thanks to my handphone usb cable, i can't seem to transfer new photos in unless i restart my computer and i'm just too lazy for that.

i know most of you would say "restarting the computer just takes like a couple of minutes dude."
well, now then you know how lazy i really am.
hahaha.

ok, i've just added a song in my blog which most of you should have noticed by now. its not really that heavy except that there's a few screaming in the background, cause i have to appeal to most of you here and have a post-hardcore song instead. cause i know if i put in a hardcore one, alot of you would be nagging at me by now.

it's the song "letters to you" by finch. i know its pretty old school but i just can't find any website that feeds new songs, so bear with me for now.
i still remember the first time i heard this song was way back almost 3 years ago when i was working in bax global at changi with arvind during my 'n' levels holidays. i was listening to it in a compilation cd hockang burnt for me. it truly meant something to me at that time and the song almost resembles exactly what i was experiencing. i hope you guys like it too.

it goes like this:

can't you see that I wanna be there with open arms
It's empty tonight and I'm all alone
Get me through this one

Do you notice I'm gone?
Where do you run to so far away?

I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so
I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so

I'm writing again these letters to you aren't much, I know
But I'm not sleeping and you're not here
The thought stops my heart

Do you notice I'm gone?
Where do you run to so far away?

I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so [x4]

No more looking I've found home

I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so [x4]

I'm gone away
I'm gone away

MONEY MONEY MONEY!! damn, i've just lost $10 an hour ago due to some soccer matches betting. plus another $40 i lost last weekends, my $50 just FLEW right in infront of me in 1 single week! arggh... how pathetic is that. i hope i win back all my money again by next week. i know how people say betting will only make one lose in the end and its totally true. so, an advise for those who never tried betting before, DON'T!! don't ever think about it. not even for the fun of it.

anyway, i just got back home from soccer matches watching at chinmeng's house with the rowdians (weitong, ben, albert, hock, mond, paul, qingan, keong, sharon, felki and wenyan). we had dinner at 827 at 6.30pm before that but i still continued to eat 4 pratas halfway watching the game when albert, qingan and sharon went down to buy supper for some of us. i need to watch my diet!

oh yeah, forgot to tell you guys that last thursday, our sports & wellness teacher had us measured our weight and height plus some details of the fat in our body. my weight actually DECREASE from 73kg during july 2004 to 69.8kg. hahaha. moreover, the total amount of FAT i had now is 16.9%, though i had 16.6% in the past, i think it is still quite acceptable. i hope i could keep up this good work and lose more FAT in the future. i need more muscles.

and one more thing, on friday, 23rd of september, is my 15 years friend, ong tian nee's 19th birthday. we've known each other since nursery til now. therefore, i'll wish her yet another HAPPY BIRTHDAY cause i know once isn't enough. hope you've enjoyed celebrating your birthday with us as well as your other friends and relative. and please grow up and be less talkative. hahaha.

well, we celebrated her birthday that day by having a steamboat dinner over at marina south. quite alot of us were there to spent time and celebrate with her and it consists of ben, hock, mond, albert, james, jason, paul, qingan, alex, dick, sharon, wenyan and peggie. i'm sure we all had alot of fun and laughter taking pictures and telling jokes. it's been like almost a year since we all had steamboat together and a pity that some couldn't be there to join us. we all should go sentosa again some time soon. after the dinner, we took a train back for soccer at central park while tian nee went to meet her friends. anyway, the horde of us play soccer till around 3+am before stopping by at 7-11 for some magazine browsing cause thianbeng was working. haha. we were all too into MAXIM and FHM. i got home and watched some new music videos at yahoo before finally landing on my bed at 5am.

below are some photos taken during and after our trip to marina south in the mrt. i know its crap but i just love to take photos of everything and anything!

hock is so stress as he has just lost $80 while betting and now he's so poor that he couldn't afford to pay for the steamboat. so in the end, he had to stay behind to clear the place and wash the dishes to pay the price. haha.

albert is posing for the camera because this could be the actual debut picture for his new acting career. hahaha. maybe he's just trying to show the sign language; LOVE.

i don't know why but qingan just loves to act cute infront of the camera most of the time. sharon, i know you're seeing this now, so please CONTROL your qingan. hahahaha.

hock is happily trying out his new phone; 6680 which is the same phone as mine. except that he's got better features cause mine was the 1st batch. DAMN IT, i'm jealous! i wanna steal his phone and switch it with mine. muahaha.

when you're full after having a feast, you'll feel sleepy. and when you feel sleepy at a bus-stop, you'll look exactly like what paul on the right is doing now. hahaha.

mond is smiling happily cause all his brothers didn't left him, unlike the boy in the advert. 'one by one, all my brothers left me'. how sad is that. so guys, don't do drugs and find some decent friends. for example, ME!

REPORT IT!! i'm sure most of you would have seen the picture like these in the mrt. therefore, be a good samarithan, don't hesitate and report it if you see bags lying around unattended. cause you'll never know, it could be a bomb and will eventually blow you up to pieces. BE A MAN, DO THE RIGHT THING!

BUT, if you find jewelries or other things lying around, NEVER REPORT IT!! don't be a DUMBASS like albert and report it. KEEP IT yourself, it could worth something.

and by now, some of you could be thinking, "if i could keep the jewelries, might as well i keep the bomb too instead". if i really did read your mind, then you are REALLY A STUPID IDIOT. WHICH ASSHOLE BRING BOMBS HOME? THINK!!!

alright, i've just came back from playing soccer at central park with the rowdians. before that, was having dinner at foodcourt with keong, felki paul, and wenyan. then it was drinking bubble tea at blue sea. as the rest were already at basketball court waiting for the ball which is at my house, so i cycled back home to take first.

i'm feeling so tired and my legs are so sore now after soccer. cause today in school had s&w lesson which we have to run 2.4km for the nafa test!

i almost killed myself.
seriously.
i feel like i almost fainted.
haha.

this is the first time i ran the whole 2.4km without stopping i think, unlike the previous years in secondary school. i'm so proud of myself, the passing time is 12.30 mins and i got 11.10 mins. it may seem slow to some of you but its the 2nd time in my life that i got around 11 mins. haha. i guess all the jogging really did help. but still, i hope i can improve on the timing as well as the rest of the 5 stations. well, we also haven't done our pull-ups yet and i know i'll totally fail it. i don't even think i can do 5 at least. i'm doomed!

during break time, was with josh and yusman cause ghaz wasn't here. we had lunch in school before proceeding to safra bowling to slack. bumped onto khairi there and we play our old past-time during it1c which is playing photohunt! hahaha. but now change already, its called EROTIC photohunt which you can choose pictures from babes to hunks. HAHAHA! we had fun pressing our fingers on the babes (of course not the hunks, we're not GAYS). when we're almost halfway breaking the record, we got chase out by the security for wearing our uniforms. this is actually the first time we got chased out, i guess safra is now stricter than before. we didn't even finish the game, kinda wasted our cash man. khairi left for his lessons after that.

as we still had quite some time before our break ends, josh and me play a match of pool at the bowling alley and i won, like always. hahaha. then went to buy some snacks and drink at the cyber cafe and seated near there to rest. we had a whole lot of laughter while crapping. josh really had his tongue tied or something, cause he keep talking PURE CRAP. he keep mixing words with others which is really funny. it rained in the end, so yusman and me decided not to go back school for our maths lessons.

i felt really guilty cause its the 3rd time i skipped maths. 3 hours each lesson, i hope i don't get debarred. but like what josh and yus said, i'm like the teacher's pet so i confirm won't get in trouble. hahaha.

when we're about to leave, it just rain suddenly. the weather nowadays sure suck. luckily, i spotted an umbrella hanging nearby and i took it (i don't think its consider stealing. haha). so i tonbang josh back to school first before going back with yusman.

well, thats about it for today. except there's still some photos below i took during school time for you guys to see. another early day in school tomorrow which starts at 8! arggh, i hope i'm able to get myself up. til next time, i'm out!

ghaz is able to smoke while sleeping! isn't that just so cool. its a unique skill he learned after months of practice. hahahaha. he's now trying to master how to masturbate while sleeping. now that's gonna take years. hoho.

this is the actual image of how ghaz smokes while he asleep. all of you gotta learn from this guy man. haha. so in the future you won't get caught smoking in school cause you don't have to. you just have to lie asleep somewhere at home and your body will do the smoking for you. sweet~ and yes i know i'm talking crap.

smoking is not just it1c's favourite past-time last time, it's also it2p's favourite past-time now. so i guess i'm really gonna die one day from inhaling too much 2nd hand smoke. damn.

everybody just LOVES smoking, don't they? we're all gonna die one day i suppose. so dying alil' bit earlier doesn't make much difference huh.

EH BbbITCHhhhHH... (WEI CHONG'S STYLE) *DROOLING* *WIPING DROOL* hahaha. josh is just trying to imitate weichong but actually, all of us just love to imitate weichong as well. he's really a COOL guy not to be missed.

hahaha. i know you guys are dying for this, so here you go. this is WEI CHONG THE MAN!!! ALL SHALL KNEE AND HAIL UPON HIM. its not that i have anything against him, he's my friend ok.

josh is so big and muscular that people are dying to make him the bouncer of their clubs. but he's actually afraid of me. hoho. he's my age and yet he sneaks into cinema to watch R21 shows with GIRLS so easily. I'M JEALOUS! HAHA.

REMEMBER this name, ALBERT SEE CHUN HAN. cause you may get to see him appear on your tv screen in the near future. haha. he joined the 'star idol' competition organised by channel 8 and he got through the first audition. so on sunday, we (which includes ben, hock, mond, kelvin, eggie and me) accompanied him to the mediacorp studio for his second and last audition. if he make it again this time round, he would be in the top 20 which inclues 10 males and 10 females.

well, on that day, we had breakfast at long john silver's before taking a train to toa payoh. as we would be pretty late by the time we reach toa payoh, so we stopped at newton instead and took a cab from there. upon reaching the reception area, there were already quite a lot of the contestants waiting there and all eyes were on us when we entered. finally the crew came and albert went to register. we waited for quite some time and was getting bored, so we took the 2 pictures below.

"hey you! yeah you!" this pictures actually shows how bored we really were at that time. hahaha. "you could be the next star idol!"

hock: "oh me!?!? me?? are you pointing me?" senget: "yeah its you, thats right, the one in green with the THICK POINTED EYESBROWS" AHAHAHAHA!!

after albert got inside the studio, we actually tried to persuade the crew to let the whole 6 of us in and they finally agreed. inside, we were asked to sign this paper indicating that we allowed our faces to be shown on tv. who doesn't want man? haha. time were then given for the contestants to practise on the set as each of them had their own partner, a guy and a girl. albert got lucky and was given the easier script and had to be alil' intimate with his partner but too bad his partner ain't pretty at all. unlike some others. HOHOHO! there sure were ALOT of pretty chicks, i feel like acting myself. hahahaha.

when albert finished the audition with the judges, he came back with eyes all over him. not just the contestant, but the crew and stars there. i think he is the MAIN ATTRACTION. bryan wong sees highly of him and was telling the crew how good an actor he could be. he was immediately interviewed when he came back, not just once but thrice i think. when bryan wong was interviewing him, all of us were dragged into it as well and was cheering his name at the end of the interview. HAHAHAHA. you could actually see my face cheering for him on tv. how cool is that? i wonder when the show starts.

seeing how he acted on the tv screen that day, really makes me feel albert got the potential. rowdees may actually have our very own STAR ACTOR! haha. i'm so fucking proud of him! i hope he could be in the top 20 when the results come out on 27 september. nevertheless, i also saw alot of good actors and actresses that day as well. some could really act the shit out of themselves. to me, acting seems really hard and i myself can NEVER do that.

by the time albert was let off, we quickly took a cab top jurong east as ben need to collect this free gift which is a camera at some store there by 6pm.

we were all CHEATED!!!

it was a shitty camera, a really OLD SCHOOL one. i don't think anyone would buy or even use it nowadays. we actually wasted our cab fares which i'm sure in total, cost more than that stupid camera.

we had kfc over there and took a cab again back to chinmeng's house to join the other rowdians for the match between liverpool and man utd. after it ended at 9pm, we proceed to central park for our usual night soccer. it was a short one and we got back home as early as 11.30pm which is not like us. maybe because there's school and work the next day and some had minor injuries on them. i realised that this year is the first time we didn't celebrate our moon cake festival. we didn't even touch any candles or lanterns. damn, it could have been fun.

alright i'm too tired to update anymore already. below are some pictures we took when we were at marina square eating carl's jr on friday. hope you enjoy. out!

the double western bacon cheeseburger fucking taste awesome. i really love it! it has bacon, cheeses, beef patties and onion rings in it. that all is enough to make your mouth drool. now i'm drooling.... oh ya, and not forgetting the beef chilli cheese fries which is so fucking delicious!! OMG, I WANNA EAT CARL'S JR RIGHT NOW!!

everyone is busy eating or more likely, scavenging their shares of food. anyway, we were all sharing our sides of onion rings, fries and burger with each other. cause SHARING IS CARING. but fuck it, i don't like to share. i take people's food instead. wahahaha.

alex didn't eat that day but was busy taking photo of himself and others instead. i guess he loves himself so much that is enough to fill his stomach. haha. just look at him, GAY is the best word to describe that face of his. hoho.

RESPECT THIS GUY!! hahaha!! i think ben really has this natural pose everytime we take pictures of him. he should join the modelling industry or maybe even the optical industry, but i doubt people would buy the specs when they see his eyes. haha. no offense dude.

tian nee is trying to advertise for 7-11's big gulp. but i think 7-11 is gonna suffer even more losses instead. just look at the pictures, do you think people would want to buy big gulp anymore when they see these. hahaha.

15 years and counting. i can't believe i actually met her so long ago yet she's still so noisy. i thought people change but she just doesn't. haha. i wonder when then she grow up like me.

i was just taking about grown ups and here we are now,acting like a small kids. haha. tian nee thinks she so cool, tough and strong enough to strangle me. notice my right hand was actually trying to stab her. well, i wish i really had a knife with me so i can really kill her cause she can be such a nuisance at times. more like MOST OF THE TIME.

albert was the next victim. just LOOK at him, don't you think his expression is so good that he could really be the first star idol? hahaha. i'm kidding. his expression suck so bad that i think mines much better. hurhur.

i'm not gonna say much here. this is just wenyan, the birthday girl that day, trying to pictures with everyone. there's nothing to say except that stupid act cute hair of hers. hahaha.

a MIRACLE seems to happen today. i actually mop twice and vaccum my whole house just now! its the first time i do these 2 at once. cause the air-con guy is coming to service my 3 air-cons, i realised that the house was so dirty and smelly so i decided to clean it up. i am so proud of myself right now. haha. its been like 5 years ago since i last saw my floor so clean and bright. i wonder when i'm gonna see it again. i'm just too lazy to do housework now and then, i don't even wash the dishes. i ain't planning to be a house-husband cause i hate to diry myself. but i hope i'm gonna change that. hoho. if only my parents employ a maid or something.

well, a BIG HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO WENYAN again!!! cause its her 19th birthday today. anyway, we were out celebrating and counted down to her birthday last night at central park. i had dinner at 844 first before meeting the rest of the rowdians over at clock at 9.15pm. when wenyan finally arrive after waiting nearly an hour for her, we then got to throw a dozen of eggs on her as a surprise and these are the end result:

wenyan sure look nice with eggs and shells on her isn't it, or maybe its nice cause she's already part of them. hahaha. and no matter what situation she's in, she is still able to act cute.

hock ang is smiling cheekily cause he know he's actually the MASTERMIND of this 'throw egg' shit. so he's gonna PAY on his birthday on 24th Oct. muahahaha.

the group of bookies-soon-to-be doing their things on whose owing me money and which match should i buy? hmmm....

if you can see properly, i was trying to act COCKEYE while ben is not. cause he's already COCKEYE. HAHAHAHA.

after the whole egg throwing thing, wenyan went back home to bath and change first while the rest of us, proceed to basketball court for our usual night soccer. play till around 12am before we paused to give way to wenyan's birthday cake-cutting ceremony. it was the black forest flavor but i didn't even eat it cause it was fattening and i'm fat. haha.

yum yum, doesn't it look delicious. and winnie the pooh sure resembles wenyan quite alot. the candles look weirdly placed too.

the scavengers all awaiting eagerly for the cake to be cut so they can have the first bite. i know..., we are all ANIMALS! i know you guys want a piece of it.

but do you guys want a piece of this as well? hahaha. its alex trying to show that he has a huge dick and a tight ass to be widely known as the GREATEST GAY OF CHANGI OF ALL TIME.

this is the picture of the scavenger's aftermeal. looks pretty much like shit right cause we're all messed up people. hoho.

anyway, after the full meal for most of them, we still managed to play quite a few more rounds of soccer before leaving for home at 2am.

now, the service guy still haven't arrive and i'm pissed. he's supposed to be here at 3pm. its already 3.48pm now. fuck! if he's still not here soon, i'm not gonna have a chance to take a nap at all. cause i'll be meeting some rowdians for orchard and carl's jr later at 6pm. DAMN THE SERVICE GUY. i'm gonna complain!!