Symptoms of A Failing Heart

why men of the match?
and not man of the match, you ask?
that's because EVERYONE of us did superbly well for the match today against a older malay team.
all of us are winners today.
it was a glorious victory of 6 - 1.
a really terrific day.
i am so fucking proud of each and everyone of rowdees.
even though the pitch was smaller than what we usually play, we just had to adjust our playing style a little.
that is why the opponents were TOTALLY OUTPLAYED.
they were no match for our endless energy and skills.
in simple words, we were OWNING!
the efforts we put in are just marvelous.
WELL DONE ROWDIANS!!!!

first day of work, or shall i call it training, went better than i expected.
even though the new software of the ticketing computer was rather complex, i still managed to master it after a few attempts of struggling through while selling the tickets. lol.
at first i was so fucking nervous trying to get the hang of it.
well, what can i say, i'm a fast learner. hohoho.
and i just love interacting with the customers, even if it's just a short conversation.
it's simply interesting to observe people and how they talk.
still, it's a real boring jobs when there's no customer but the flexible timing make up for it.


most important of all, my deepest condolence to hock whose dad recently just passed away.
together with chener and some of the rowdians, we attend the funeral wake this afternoon.
by around 5pm, chener, wenyan and i left first.
back to tampines for subway dinner.
next up, chener grab her stuffs at tampines' home before we left for bukit batok.
then i was home again to grab stuffs for soccer.
and now, soccer ended and i'm feeling so refresh after bathing.
yawn.
i'm still gonna visit the funeral wake again tomorrow to accompany zhenfai, james, my bro and some kukus.
time to sleep soon i guess!
but not before i WoW for abit first.
heh.


<3

at last! i've found a job!
and i'm starting work this thursday!!! hoho.
faster than i expected, but at least it's better than slacking and gaming at home.
time to earn money and pay off my debts as soon as possible.
not forgetting to indulge myself with shopping and feasting!!


for your information, i'm back to selling movie tickets at century cineplex.
hahaha. after weeks of finding a job, i actually end up back there which is kinda unexpected.
it happened when i bumped onto my manager and she said that they needed someone.
so after much consideration, i gladly accept out of desperation.
$5 per hour, but it'll do, for now, unless i could find a better one.
from now on, i'll be working on tuesday and thursday 5.45pm to 9.45pm.
friday 5.45pm to 12am. (i can't go for night soccer on time now!!! ARGH!!)
and saturday 10am to 5.45pm.
hopefully it doesn't clash with my schedule when school starts on the 21st july.


anyway i just got back from movie of "get smart" with chener.
not a bad show but i was expecting more laughter.
after that we had a small dinner of mac.
by small i mean happy meal. haha. years since i actually had one.
and then i was sending her home before i walk home myself.
=)

soccer match yesterday was FUCKING AWESOME!!
we managed to thrash wenyan's cousin's team by 7 - 2. HOHOHO.
i scored a hat trick (i'm still waiting for my milestone), qingan an with 2 goals and dale with another 2 goals!!
WAHAHAHA.
this is one of the few times that i actually felt good about myself.
one of the best performance i ever had. heh.
but not forgetting the whole team did well. thank you everyone.
and i hopeful this results stay when we versus a uncle's team the coming sunday morning.


as for friday night.
some of my old 5n2 classmates from junyuan had a class gathering!
god, i missed those moments back in secondary school.
but i had so much fun catching up with them but too bad most of them couldn't make it.
even ivan and his brothers came back from the states to visit us!
i haven't seen him for like 5 years now!
he sure changed quite abit.
it was at giraffe restaurant and bar where we gathered.
food is really expensive, but i'm sure it's worth every penny.
so here are some of the pictures.

money money money.
everything is about money nowadays.
why is money such a FUCKING PAIN IN THE ASS?!?!
on top of that, being jobless makes it far worse.
totally NO MONEY!!! BROKE!!
i feel so fuck up now.
especially when my starhub bill came again which states $264!!
SERIOUSLY WTF WTF!!!
and i thought that $404 of my previous bill was the end of my freaking nightmare.
my mum is so gonna KILL ME AGAIN.
anyway, i better check with starhub soon just to make sure there isn't any error in it.


now, i desperately need a job!!!
why hasn't the call centre job call me yet!?!?! argh.
i guess i'll do any job will do at this moment.
even if it means dirty jobs. (not selling my ass of course)
anybody please intro me any?
and once i get one, i shall fucking work my ass off and pay all my bad debts.
i want to get rid of this useless feelings.
ahh........


i HATE to whine, but i can't help it.
shibby.


thank god, there's still light in my life right now.
which at least makes things doesn't appear as bad as it looks.
i just can't wait for all these to be over.

first there was "the happening".
then came "shaolin girl".
omg, i've been watching so many fucking lame ass and money wasting movies lately.
it's almost like a movie marathon month for me.
and there's still "you don't mess with zohan" coming up this week.
important thing is, i'm still short of cash and jobless!
i even missed paying my prudential saving plans for 2 months now.
fuck fuck shit fuck.
why can't i just strike 4D or toto. lol.
grant me luck!


it's wednesday already.
yawn.
boring wednesday.
hungry wednesday.


time now, 2pm.
approximately an hour more before my bro left for school.
and then the laptop is MINE ONLY to continue my WILD-ing (ben's classic).
ROFL.


i used to call you a stranger, now i call you my angel.

the lions are so disappointing...
to think that a group of us actually went to support them at the national stadium.
instead, their game of football against saudi arabia was truly not beautiful AT ALL.
no wonder singapore never made it into the world cup before.
the most frustrating would be how i wasted my $8!!!
plus my transport fee and time some more. argh.
lions, you ought to do better.


those who attended the 7.30pm match are myself, keong, weitong, alex, ben, boon, felki, suet, wenyan, stephanie and peggie.
everyone one of us are singapore supporters, except ben and boon who were wearing green tops. LOL.
but there was still fun in cheering, doing the kallang wave and scolding both sides of the team.
hopefully, we get to do that again some time soon.


on the flip side, we get to have a fantastic dinner at old airport road though.
$7 for a western mix grilled.
if you think it's cheap, it taste even better! hoho.
after that, it was home for most of us.


oh fuck.
its monday tomorrow and everyone around me are either working or schooling already.
only left, me, doing NOTHING....
i feel so useless.
give me something to do!
or maybe i'll just WoW till i drop for the time being.
i need to hit the gym too!


and welcome home, janice!
sadly, the surprise plan didn't manage to work out.
but its okay, another time perhaps (if there's chance).
and we'll all pray for hock's dad to get well soon.

MUAHAHAHA...
it's past 12am.
and therefore, today is, FRIDAY THE 13th.....
oh well, like i give a shit. lol.
as long as my friday won't be boring, i'm fine with it!
hopefully we have some decent plans coming up.


so earlier on, i was out watching 7.30pm movie of "the happening" with my family at century.
seriously, that show fucking sucks, BADLY!!! TOTALLY!!!
one of those c-grade movie coming from those cheap ass movie studios.
DON'T EVER THINK OF WATCHING IT.
luckily i didn't have to pay for it, or else i would have made such a big fuss.
we're better off watching "incredible hulk" instead.
i wonder whose stupid idea was it.
must be bro's. haha.


the interview on wednesday went rather well i would say.
i have abit of high hopes? maybe?
but i had to wait for a week or two to know the outcome.
ahhh.... it's taking way too long.
i'm way too broke and bored nowadays.
WoW-ing has kept me too occupied that i know, I NEED A LIFE!
you guys don't have to remind me.


i also had to listen to the MLM talk by chunhong and his senior at toa payoh hub after the interview.
the "job", if you call one, really seems tempting but i doubt i'll join them anytime soon.
cause i'm fine with my comfort zone right now.
MLM isn't a line i would want to explore at the moment.
therefore, good luck for my interview.

32!!!! thirty fucking two!!!
thats the number of invoices i'm supposed to type for my dad's company!
not forgetting plus 1 quotation as well.
normally, the most it's just 3 or 4.
but 32!! seriously, WTF.
it's been stored since march.
why must that company wait till now?!?
fuck.
this is wasting my time.
i am so gonna take some cash from my dad after i'm done with those.


BUT....
thank god, the typewriter saved my life. at least for today.
halfway typing, it was temporary damaged due to an error in the ink cartridge.
we haven't buy the new ones, so my parents will get them tomorrow.
i guess for now, i'm saved.
which is good enough for me.
hohoho.


WoW is having maintenance today. damn.
i'm only left with watching downloaded series or movies online.
and "pushing daisies" is such a NICE SHOW!!
i'm really tired too, and there's still interview and meetings in the morning tomorrow.
thats why i better get some rest early later.
but for now, it's time to watch some show to spend time!


p.s. the wind today was so fucking strong.
the first time i ever witness something like that from my flat.
i swear it could almost blow someone away.
well, weather is getting fuck up nowadays due to pollutions.
SAVE THE EARTH!!!

it's been awhile since i last exercised at home.
or even exercised at all!
therefore i was using the new exercise mat to do some sit ups earlier on!
cause apparently, my cousin was commenting on how big my tummy has become right after ORD.
it was like the first thing he said to me when i reached his house, like wth.
but it did inspired me to work out, like just now.
so here i am, trying to kill this irritating tummy. fuck.


thanks to WoW, which has been keeping me so occupied these days that i keep rejecting zhenfai's offer of gym or swimming session.
damn it.
time for a change!


anybody wanna exercise with me?

alesana's new album "when myth fades to legend" simply ROCKS MY SOCKS!!
they were never disappointing.
and this is how good they are, live.


"this conversation is over"



"the uninvited thirteenth"



"this is usually the part where people scream"

YAWN.
i'm feeling sleepy yet again when i just woke up not long.
cause i realized it was afternoon already and i didn't want to waste anymore precious time.
so yeah, i forced myself awake.
but i sense that it's gonna be a boring sunday.
i hope there better be a plan installed today.


yesterday was awesome.
headed to millenia walk to collect that free gift together with hock and wenyan around 6pm.
plan to catch a movie but marina square were crowded like fuck.
so we phone-booked our tickets of "kung fu panda" at 9pm at cathay cineplex.
then made our way to centre point's timberland to find zhenfai and suet who were working.
when it was about time, took a bus over there.


i must say, "kung fu panda" is really fucking HILARIOUS!!!
jack black is indeed funny as hell.
throughout the movie, i was laughing non-stop.
and some scene i just couldn't stop LAUGHING MY ASS OFF!!!
i think the little girl beside me must have been quite intimidated by my laughter.
ROFL.
seriously, i won't mind watching it again.
if you're a comedy lover, you shouldn't miss it!
one last thing, we actually sat in the FIRST ROW!!!
it's been like what? ages? since i last sat that kind of seats.
if not for the funny distraction from the show, my neck would have ache like mad.
THANKS AH WENYAN! lol.


so after the movie, we chilled outside while waiting for zhenfai and suet to knock off.
met them up at city hall and proceed back to wenyan's place.
she got her key and car and off we go to bedok 85 for supper.
next stop was to geylang for "beancurd" and "you tiao".
not forgetting the endless stares to the opposite "HAPPENING CLUBS WITH BAR TOP"
hahaha.


well, we got bored, so we had the idea of going red light district for a lil' adventure!
parked somewhere near and took a stroll along the area.
3 guys and 2 girls. so we walk and walk and see and stare.
we tried protecting the ladies but still....
wenyan got groped on the ass buy some bangla!
erm, not really groped, maybe a small spank?
LOL.
i bet zhenfai was hoping why wasn't he the one who got groped.
hahaha.


slowly, we got tired and since it's already 3am.
we decided to head home.
just when wenyan dropped me off and i thought my night was done.
sylvester, across the street at the coffeeshop spotted me and called me over.
together with nicholas and huixia, we chat and catch up since it's been so long since our secondary school days.
damn i miss those days.
at last, 4am and finally home sweet home.


as i lay down my life before you,
the hiding place where I sought out your eyes.
screaming outwards to shoot me back in time.
you sent me out in the right field,
spilled my words and disguise.
we're starting a rise.
now it's so true I can't go on without you by my side.
every night we die.

it's sad to hear that a few of my army friends are going to be charge and end up in DB.
worse of all, when it's their ORD day yesterday!
like WTF!!!!
they were seriously foolish enough to skip camp last wednesday when there's area cleaning.
and then couldn't produce a MC at all on the last day.
this is indeed fucking stupid.
and our OC didn't even gave chance at all.
so i guess they're gonna be in DB for 3 days.
all the best to them.
let the lesson be learnt.


and why is everybody getting so dumb nowadays.
just yesterday, my bro went to ate the 1 and only leftover J.co donut.
i was already planning to throw it away since it was a FEW DAYS old already.
but he told me he sniff it and thought it was okay so he ate it.
this is what i call, GREEDY PEOPLE.
hahaha. okay, i admit i am one too.
so now, he's sick, vomiting and shitting.
how sad.
another lesson learnt.


oh, finally i have my morning back!
hahahaha.
well, woke up at around 10am with only 5 hours of sleep. zzzz..
damn, i'm feeling sleepy now already.
shit.
but i'm so fucking hungry as well!
WHERE IS MY FOOD!?!?!


anyway, hopefully get to go town later on to help mom collect her free gift.
a watch worth $150. like WOW.
but how good could it possibly be?
also, meeting the usual rowdians for any activities, as long as it doesn't involve money.
lol.
pray hard i strike 4D today!


the weather now is so good to sleep.
yawn.

"she keeps on asking "do you think it hurts much to die".
"it's hurting so much more to stay alive now".
she's gonna find out how much it hurts to die.
she laced her perfume up with death.
feel it in my lungs,
so i'll pull in the deepest breath,
and drop my head.

the sleepless nights that i've missed have finally caught up with me.
i was so tired earlier on that i knocked out immediately after WoW started its weekly maintenance.
i would have missed my dinner if not for mum's nagging of waking me up.
yawn.
i'm still tired though, but i plan to stay awake until the maintenance ends at 2am to continue. heh.
i know i'm becoming more of a hardcore gamer but thats something i can't help it.
at least until i get a job or start school, then i guess i may slack down a little bit.
and i need a job badly!!!
i'm starting waiting for the rest to give me the details and results about those lobangs they have.
in the mean time, i feel like a useless bum everyday.


anyway today i finally exercise my body in the afternoon by going NAFA to pay my fees and hand in my documents etc.
met up with wenyan over there when she was done with school.
we then made our way to j.co donuts @ raffles where we meet my bro and hoey.


and seriously, the donuts there are FUCKING AWESOME!!!!
it's way better than dunkin donuts and donut factory in my opinion.
or maybe i just got sick of them.
nevertheless, it's a MUST TRY!!!
a great place to chill too.
i bought a dozen back and i'm feeling hungry already.
better go finish them up before my bro does!!
WAHAHAHA.


2 more hours to go before maintanence ends.
hohoho.

i forced myself awake at 10am to my mom's nagging as she had prepared breakfast.
i swear i didn't felt like waking up at all as i slept at 6.30am! i was freaking tired.
BUT.....
she made us cheese sausages, bacon, ham and egg sandwiches!!
HOW THE HELL CAN I NOT WAKE UP FOR IT?!?!?!
HAHAHAHA!!
so i did.
and went back to sleep immediately after.
somehow, it felt surreal.
as if my breakfast was just a sweet dream.
hahahaha.
but it did made me shit right after that, so i guess it sure was real enough.
HOHO.


and now it's 2pm!
i feel much more refresh but i'm slowly becoming like a panda!
the fucking dark circles.


anyway, i slept so late last night because i was out fishing with the usuals.
we came back only at 4.40am and then i continued WoW-ing all the way till i slept. heh.
well, the group consist of the usual keong, tong, felki, suet, steph and me.
we were out fishing at pasir ris park in a LOW TIDE.
so yeah, there wasn't any catch for the day. a pity.
not forgetting we were fishing IN A FILTERED AREA.
how dumb can we be. rofl.
so we end up playing chop chilli chop to pass the time.
it was simply so hilarious that i burst out crying and laughing at the same time. HAHA.


and we actually walked over to pasir ris park in the first place.
but took a cab back instead as we were all shag out.
i guess our next fishing trip shall be a better and well-planned one.
haha.


the other day when i was having my ORD function back at camp was such a fruitful one.
there was a huge amount of joy yet a little bit of sadness, at least for me.


they had a stage, tables and buffet set up just for us at the parade square.
unlimited cans of beer with the help of HOT SEXY BEER GIRLS.
(I SWEAR THERE WAS ONE WHO IS SO HAWWTT AND HER HUGE BOOBS ARE ALMOST SPILLING OUT OF HER THAT SUPER LOW-CUT TOP AND THAT REALLY FUCKING SHORT SKIRT OF HERS. OMG OMG OMG! HOW I WISH I COULD HELP SUPPORT AND PUSH BACK HER BOOBS. HAHAHAHAH!!! OKAY I'M NOT TRYING TO BE TIKO HERE BUT THIS IS THE FACT MAN!)
like fucking every guy there was literally staring at her.
there's also NOT SO HOT AND PRETTY dancers stripping to their bikinis, lap dancing to some lucky guys and hot dancing on the stage.
we also have BAPOK lip-syncing and telling us really funny jokes about men and women.
not forgetting the games section that we had to take part.


one section of the game, we had to play according to our individual companies.
for example, they want the most nokia handphones or the youngest/lightest men fromthe company.


then it came that faithful moment.


"i want the hairest guy from the company", he said.
suddenly everyone was staring at me and shouting my name.
seriously, WTF!!!!
honestly i wasn't even the hairest guy but wth.
they made and drag me to go since the rest weren't up for it.
once i stepped onto the stage and the contestants came up.
straightaway, i knew i lost.
WHY?
because they were all INDIANS!!!!!!!
HOW THE FUCK CAN I WIN?
i can never be hairier than them.
ROFL.


then the HARDEST part came.
time to show our hair.
BUT again.
it wasn't THAT EASY.
first, we have to back face the crowd.
then a superhero tune will play.
and we have to slowly (according to the tempo of the tune) turn back like a superhero.
just nice, at the final part of the tune, we had to pull up our top high like how superman reveal himself.
OMFG. i can't believe i ACTUALLY DID THAT.
infront of everybody.
so yeah, i went down the stage a losing man.
not just losing for my company, but my face too.
HAHAHAHA!!
last but not last, we had video screening of the things we did for the past 2 years.
rather touching.
cake cutting ceremony to mark our battlion anniversary before we hold each other sang the song "peng you".
and called it a day with our last battlion cheer.


thanks to sir pek who drove me back for soccer by 12am.
thats about it.